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17. March 2019.

 We were supposed to have training in the morning but he moved it twice so now we are having it at lunchtime. As I was three minutes away from the gym my song stopped playing and I heard ringing in my earphones. Will's name was on the screen. 'If you move it again you're dead' I thought to myself. "Hey, are you close?" "I am." "Ok, I am outside taking something to eat." "Ok, I'll be right there." Even if we talked for twenty seconds I love hearing his voice. I love how he calls me, how he calls me freely but I can't do that. He's not like me to have free time so I can't call him whenever I want and if I was calling him I should have the reason for it but when I get the urge to call him usually I don't have the reason, I just need to hear him, I need his voice to listen to. I just... I can't explain. But why did he called me, he could've texted me. Am I wrong or am I just imagining... Was that a reason to hear my voice? I know that we are about to meet but he could've seriously texted me. As I made a turn I saw the shape of his body far from me. I was getting closer but I don't think that he saw me coming. "Hey, how have you been?" "Good" At the moment I forgot that I was down and moody since yesterday. I felt good. I'm not surprised because I think that he is the only person that can make my day from just being there, from just saying 'hi'. No, I'm not surprised because he can really do that to me. If I would cry now and if he would be right next to me and if he would give me just a hug I know that I'll be ok, I know that from just a hug and no words, I know that I would be ok. Is this wrong? He's the only one that I need next to me and I can't have that, he's the only one who can make me feel better, I know that. God, I need his hug.

As I was standing next to him I wanted to go to get ready for the training but there was something, like a force that I felt that was telling me 'don't go'. My feet were stuck next to him and I just couldn't move, that was ridiculous. So, I was there with him and we were talking about training, I think. He was starting this job basically like a doctor in a big hospital and I was super happy for him and so we were talking about how to arrange training days. I don't like the time for training to be in the afternoon but I have to be flexible, he's been flexible for me and now I have to be for him. When his order was done I heard what condiments he likes to put, yum. He was eating while we walked towards the gym. "You go change and I'll swallow this." "No, no, take your time." I changed fast and started the bike. He was there with me, he asked me if I was preparing for Italy. We were talking about Italy for a while. After the bike I moved to the treadmill for thirty minutes, later on, I moved for an elliptical machine, it was hard but I made it for ten minutes. While I was on the machine he was on the phone next to me so I kind of heard what he was talking but it's not like I was eavesdropping and I had to laugh because he was hilarious and I was trying to hide my reaction but I didn't do it well. He was doing a Montenegrin accent and it was so funny that I had to laugh. He heard me and saw me but what was I supposed to do when he was doing it? I love it when he does that, he's so funny. After training right before we went separate ways he asked me for a movie recommendation. "I have time tonight." "Ok, I'll text you." Later today I texted him. "You have a great movie Sully which is based on a true story and there is also a Flight plan which I think you'll like the most. I'm having also movie night, any suggestions?" "Do you like action?" "I do." "You have a Jason Statham's The Mechanic, have you watched it?" "Oh, I know it but I haven't seen it yet." "It's good, it's easy to watch it." He said that because you don't have to turn your brain on like for Inception.