I'm confused and just... someone once said "Everything went to hell", I do not deny it. Nothing is easy now, there is no simplicity or am I wrong? Please, do tell. If you are, for example, asking a guy out, it doesn't matter to what, now it's questionable whether it's a date or not. If it's a date, should you expect a kiss later or is it just a friendly hang out. Today you don't know whether it's a date or not until someone uses a word buddy, pal, or friend. I hate that, I hate that word.
So, if I ask a guy out for drinks, is that a date, it sounds like one but... I'm too confused, I can't think anymore. I don't know what else to do. I am impatient but I am trying, I am trying my best.
I had that feeling of lust again. I don't even know what triggers it. The other day I was so full of adrenaline and I think I was affected by him. I don't know what happened but I was attracted by him so much that I barely managed to fight it, to control it. I want to kiss him so badly that every time I closed my eyes he is close to me, his lips are close to me, they are ready for me to kiss them, they are ready to be mine. I wanted him, I wanted every part of his body on mine. I wanted to be on top of him, I wanted him to want me. Now, I still want to kiss him but I don't have that strong urge to do so. I love everything about him, every little thing.
He was touchy today, I didn't mind. When he greeted me he was holding my hand and I didn't want to let go, I haven't let go. We were holding for a long time and I waited for him to let go. I don't know what to think anymore. I know that he loves his job and I am not asking for him to quit or anything like that I am just asking for some time for just us but I guess I am asking for too much. If he really likes me he should act on it because I won't be off the market forever. If you want something, take action, take it, make it yours. I am trying, I am doing something unlike him.
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Non-FictionA life. One fragment of this life, of this young woman's life, is particularly hard for her. She's fighting through life to get everything that she ever wanted but there are many obstacles to get there, she keeps falling but she always manages to ge...