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25. January 2019.

 I never laughed so much in my life, he was insane and of course, I love that. Yesterday I texted him to tell him that my sister is in town, she's my cousin but all of our cousins are like siblings to us and I asked him when can we do training and if we can do therapy. He said that there will be someone at that time that I have suggested, so he told me to come a little bit later. The way he said that I was thinking that he wanted us to be alone, I'm glad that Will said that because we had so much fun today. As I was on bike paddling I was thinking to tell him something but I wasn't sure if I should at all. My graduation ceremony is tomorrow and I wanted him to be there so... I couldn't, I knew that he wouldn't make it so I didn't want to be disappointed in advance. I thought about telling him so I smiled. "What's so funny?" "Oh, nothing." I told him that I was smiling for no reason, it just isn't the right thing to tell him and I just couldn't. I started the conversation with "Have you seen the movie?" We talked and talked, it was so smooth. I was telling him this story and usually, he looks at the floor when I talk but this time he was looking at me directly which made me feel a little bit exposed and vulnerable. He was looking at me waiting for the punch line of the story and when I did he had this big grin on his face. I could stare at it all day, it's so beautiful. It's like a sunset, when it happens it's so beautiful that you cannot help but look. We laughed so much I just can't remember why and then he was telling some of his stories, I was listening to him carefully and so we started talking about food. "Have you ever tried to eat first sweet then salty?" I have never, it sounds weird. The other day he was telling me something and then he said how everything in his life lasts for thirty seconds. My mind went the other way and when I say other way I mean a dirty way. So, I wanted to ask, I had to ask and I opened my mouth. "Not everything, right?" I had this smile on my face waiting for his response. "No, no, not everything." He smiled too. Oh my god, I hope he understood the question.

We continued talking and laughing and as we enjoyed ourselves we forgot about the time. If we didn't have obligations and if the time would stop I feel like we would never stop talking and enjoy each other's company.