Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

One Hundred Fifty Three

Sirius helped me onto his motorcycle again and we left for his house
He told me my dad was waiting for me there, and that was all
Everyone else was either in school or at work

When we arrived I felt less drunk, mostly just emotionally drained now
I haven't had to feel pain since I left for the bar, I drank it away daily
But I knew I'd have to be sober around my dads'
I'll find some at Hogwarts it's not hard

I walked up to the door with Sirius
I went to open it, but before I could it swung open and my dad pulled me in
"Cora" he said sadly "Sirius thank you again...you never seem to fail me"

"I'll remember that when I'm cooking and you tell me the opposite" he said trying to make light of what was going on

My dad let me inside after he stopped hugging me
I didn't want to tell him about Nico, I felt more comfortable explaining him to Sirius
My dad was closed off emotionally, he thought more logically Sirius was the opposite

"Dumbledore is coming by today, he said you have to go back now or you risk not being able to go back until next year...making you a year younger than your friends" my dad said passing me herbal tea

I shrugged my shoulders
"I don't want to go back"

My dad looked at Sirius who put his hand into my dad's and squeezed tightly
I'm sure once I left he would explain to my dad all that happened, I just couldn't
Not now
Not when I'm sober and have to deal with Nico's passing

"Cora, you should go back" he said "Hermione misses you"

I didn't say anything
I didn't even drink the tea, I just held it in my hands

"Draco misses you, Fred does too" he said

"I don't give a fuck" I said

My dad looked hurt by my words
I felt his hurt too
"Try for a week, if you can't handle it I'll personally come take you out and we can try again at a later point" my dad said "I promise"

"I didn't feel pain in Romania, in the moonlight is what I mean"

"None at all?" He asked

"None, I felt stronger there too"

"Do you want to go back there now?"
I knew if I said yes my dad wouldn't argue, he would do what was best for me

But I shook my head
Holding back tears I told him no
"I can't right now..."

"Did something happen?" He asked
I knew he was trying to lure it out of me without directly asking right away
But I shook my head no
He didn't push me further

"Ill go for a week, if I can't handle it you'll take me out?"

"I will I promise dear" my dad said
Sirius nodded his head in agreement

"I'll go pack"

"It's been packed, Hermione did it for you. She packed your things and had it ready for when you were supposed to arrive but...anyways there are some things you need to know before you go"

"Like?"

"The ministry has someone working as their defense teacher, her name is Dolores Umbridge. She isn't the nicest teacher, Harry's already received detention from her...try to avoid her if you can. Classes are the exception, I just don't want you getting into trouble ok?"

"What did he get detention for?"

"Back talking" Sirius said "she said he was a liar about you know who coming back, so he told her off. As proud as I am, he needs to keep in mind that the ministry is looking for reasons to expel him and this will only help their cause"

"Anything else?"

"The order has a few members working in Hogsmeade, Tonks is one of them" said my dad

"With everything that happened I forgot about Voldemort" I said

My dads' looked at me
Metallic
"Can you tell me what happened?" My dad asked almost begging

"I can't...it's" I stopped speaking before I lost control of my tears

"Is it ok that I tell Remus when you leave?" Sirius asked

I nodded my head and wiped my eyes

"I'm going to call Dumbledore, he'll be here tonight I'm sure" My dad said

"I'm going to sleep until then" I said going passed my dads' and up the stairs

"Do you want to eat first?" Sirius asked

"No"

I walked towards my room and saw that I indeed had bags packed already
I was supposed to share this with Hermione but it seemed like she was the only one in the room the entire summer
Nothing was out of place, everything was organized

I sat down on my bed and laid my head down onto my pillow
I stared at the ceiling, knowing I wouldn't get any sleep again

Nico's face haunts my nightmares
I wake up screaming and wet from sweat
It feels like his blood, so much so that I panic when I awaken and have to run to the showers to clean off
It always ends the same though, I sit in the shower and sob until I have no more tears left of the day

I heard a knock on my door a few hours later
"Cora are you ok?" Sirius asked

I didn't answer
I wasn't

He opened the door slightly, I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep
He walked over and sat down on my bed beside me
"I know how it feels to lose loved ones, I also know that you are awake. It doesn't get easier, I lost the first person I fell in love with and lost my best friend. Not a day goes by where I don't think of them, I blame myself for their deaths. The first person I loved was a female and she died fighting you know who, then James died fighting the same man. I felt like if I had been there things would have been different but the only thing that would have changed is I would have been dead too. If you need me at all while you're at school, I'm only a letter or Patronus away. Remus isn't good with words so I'll be there to help you however I can deary" he kissed the top of my head "Dumbledore is here for you, it's time to go back"

Sirius got off my bed but I grabbed his hand
"Th-thank you" I said weeping