Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Seventy Eight

"Don't tell me anything about your mission" he held my face "my mind isn't safe I can't know a thing"

I nodded my head
"Ok, I understand..." I felt him wiping my cheeks, treacherous tears fell through my closed eyes "P-Pansy's pregnant"

"She is"

"She has everything I want" I whispered
When I opened my watering eyes, I saw his true shade shine through to me
His eyes swirled with grey

"Not everything"

"She's your wife, she's having your kid" I felt my chest tighten as the words I said became harder to pronounce "she can be close to you, she probably lives with you"

"She doesn't have my loyalty" he kissed my wrist "she doesn't have my trust" he kissed my forehead "she doesn't visit my dreams" he kissed my cheek "she doesn't hold my happiness" he kissed my other cheek
He paused, staring at me
My chest was squeezing with so much tension
"She doesn't have my heart, I don't love her I love you. You know that right?"

"I do"
He went to kiss me again but I put my hand on his chest
"I didn't check to make sure this is really you" I said stalling
I wanted him to kiss me, badly. I just didn't know if I could handle leaving him again

He looked at me curiously, I could feel him sending that emotion through to me
"Oh? Test me. If what I said wasn't me enough"

I couldn't think with his grey blue eyes staring into my soul
"Uhm"
Blank
I had no thoughts

"How about I tell you something specific about this photo" he said picking up the Yule ball one "the song we danced to was Never Let me Go by Florence The Machine"

"Anyone who was present would know that"

He put his hand into my hair, my weakness something that wouldn't be listed on my bounty paper
"Why would anyone but the two of us remember that? Did you know that I listen to that song when I start to lose my sanity, when I can feel them pulling on my mind" he rolled up his sleeve and showed me his scarred arm "I used your wand to carve this onto my arm to remind myself of who I am and what I'm fighting for"

"Tell me about this photo" I said picking up the one of just myself

He smiled deeply, something I didn't think I would see again so soon
"As you remember I was forcing myself to leave you alone that year...this was in the beginning when it was hardest. I walked passed the library and saw you sitting in the sun chair that you typically took over, your hair looked so soft and shined with the rays pushing through the window. You were so beautiful, I needed to seal the moment"

"I didn't know you had a camera"

"I didn't, these other photos were captured by camera, but this was from my memory"

I felt subconscious for the first time in a while, I was beautiful then
My hair was long, I didn't have scars on my face
I didn't look dirty more than half the time I was in public, I was smaller than too. I didn't have the body of an adult

He placed his hands on my hips and dragged me into his chest
"You're beautiful now"

"I've changed" I grabbed the ends of my hair

"I have too, there isn't anything wrong with how you've changed"

"You liked my long hair in school"

"I liked you in school, scratch that. I loved you in school, you could have been bald and I would have felt the same. I like the way your hair is now, I wasn't lying when I first noticed it in the cell"