The days here in Romania are short but the nights are long The moon shines the brightest here, like it did years ago. This country is infested with werewolves for that reason, Fenrir Greyback has a base here. Charlie and I have been searching for it, he runs the snatcher program for the ministry and it's important for us to locate and destroy his group. We were all given missions, that's been Charlie and I's for the last year. He's hard to find surprisingly, the only time he's out is when there is a sighting of one of us. I told Charlie we could use me as bait but he refused Fenrir been known for catching most of our side. I don't know what ends up happening to the ones who are unlucky enough to get caught, I just know no one hears or sees from them again.
I've changed in the last half decade, my hair isn't long anymore. I cut it above my shoulders
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Draco loved my long hair, Fred loved my long hair. Everyone said my hair was soft, curly, beautiful I cut it a few weeks ago. I had a moment of weakness, Charlie found me by the river using a knife to shred at my hair as I cried about what it meant to me. He waited for me to finish my moment, "Shorter hair is easier to fly with anyways"he said with a hand on my shoulder. He knew that I wasn't changing something to make myself better, even if it wasn't for the tears I suppressed for years flowing down my cheeks he knew what it symbolized. It eliminated something that connected me to Draco, Fred too. Charlie doesn't pester me on what I do with Fred, he knows we sleep together often. He knows Fred tries to hold me after. He knows Fred tells me he loves me before during and after. He knows I don't feel the same way for him, I tell him things that most would keep to themselves. For whatever reason after I see Fred I have to vent out about him to Charlie. To be honest I don't think Charlie likes that I sleep with his brother and mess with his mind but Fred doesnt care so he stays out of it. Charlie tried intervening once and Fred told him off. I think Fred is afraid to lose me so he keeps himself in my life however he can. His mother thinks he's better off without me. After every meeting we find a spot to be alone, she knows what goes on. She hates me for it, truly I don't think she ever liked me. I heard her scold Fred once "she's not good for you, she's using you" he tells her I could use all of him and he would still think it's not enough. I'm the one who's not enough for him, I'm not worth his dedication.
I haven't grown in height, the men around me still tower my size but I've been told my ego is tall. Countless times I've done risky missions for the order, every time I do it the way I want to not how I'm instructed. Mad eye says I'm chaotic, coming from Mad Eye I suppose that's saying something. He thinks I'm perfect for the hard jobs for that reason, I'm not afraid like I once was. That's why we were given tracking down Fenrir. Hunting a werewolf is tough but hunting a colony of them is deadly. Everyone says I have a death wish, it scares my dad a lot. I should be worried, I should want to live but if I died fighting than that's how it is. Death is an old friend to me. I've seen him take my loved ones twice, I'm not afraid of meeting him again for my own parting.
I've found the worst part of being in hiding per say, was finding things that were normally easy to come by. Like wolfsbane, we've had meetings in the past that landed on the full moon. It's unfortunate when those come but it's unavoidable, sometimes Kingsley deems it worthy information that needs to be shared immediately and when that happens he doesn't care about my dad or my problem. My dad won't show at those meetings, Tonks gives him whatever information he needs. Charlie makes sure I'm completely covered before we apparate to the location as well, I can't afford being burned from the moon in London. I used to not mind Tonks but I don't care for her being with my dad. He told me a few years ago about their relationship. I feel like he hasn't recovered from his lose of Sirius or my own mother. She needs companionship as much as he does and I think that's why they're together. The world is ending why do I fucking care I'm doing the same shit to Fred...both of us just needing some normality in this chaos He wants companionship, I just need release
Another thing I found tricky was when my wand broke. I was battling Dragon snatchers who had sided with Voldemort, one of their spells collided with my wand and it snapped. I found Ollivander months later but after he made my wand he was snatched. I had my new wand, Hawthorn with unicorn core. My wand was the twin to Draco, I used to think that was a sign we were meant to be. Now I just feel like it's fate mocking me She mocks me often, reminding me that I lost him that day
The other dragon caretakers are scattered around Romania, I haven't seen them in almost 6 months With poachers at a high, trying to find dragons for Voldemort, we have had to stay separated. Our dragons that we are bonded to are our most important allies. The poachers do the worst things to captured creatures...Charlie and I have rescued a few that have been near death Cor and Nico's dragon heart necklaces are back on my neck, where they belong. I thought of him while staying here Would we have stayed in hiding together Would he have just died a different more painful time for me? I only wear one other piece of jewelry, I hate that I still wear it Every time I look down at fucking wrist it reminds me of what I don't have I've wanted to take it off, I've thought of throwing it into lakes or rivers that I pass by while riding Cor but I can't get myself to do it. I realize that my strength in magic has gotten better. I'm an excellent dueler now, but Draco told me the bracelet would give me his strength. If he grew stronger I did too, part of me wondered what would happen if we collided The other part of me wanted to know what Draco was going through to make him so strong
