Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Twenty Six

I went to dinner later that night
Fred had left when I was sleeping still, he left a note for me

Dear Corey,

I miss you so much
Seeing you again only brought back my intense feelings for you, I hope one day we can rekindle our relationship. I love you, I always will. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, it's best to stay away from Draco. I know it hurts, I can't imagine the pain you feel knowing your best friend isn't the same person anymore. But he's changed and it's time to—

Was all I read before I set the note on fire

At dinner I sat beside Harry instead of Hermione
I wanted to see Draco at his table, I wanted to see him look my way
But he didn't, he didn't even watch me walk in late
I laid my head on Harry's shoulder and closed my eyes

"Not hungry?" Ron asked "we made you a plate"

I shook my head no
Harry laid his head on top of mine, we have our differences but he generally cares for me I know he does.
He placed his hand on my leg and rubbed it soothingly
"The second and last Apparation class before the holiday is tomorrow" he told me "only the ones who successfully made it to the opposite circle are going to hogsmeade to practice. Your name was on the list" 

"I splinched I shouldn't be on the list" I said

"You made it across, he didn't really care that you were splinched. You had the right idea and he thinks you'll pass. I mean you should have no issue this time" Hermione said "we can go together, it's after our defense class"

"Alright" I said picking my head up off Harry's shoulder
I started to pick at my food, nothing looked good to me but I ate small pieces to please my friends

I heard chirping and saw Hedwig flying towards us
She landed on Harry's arm and held her leg out for him
"Who wrote to you?" I asked

Harry took the note and gave her some bacon
He didn't answer me, he just opened the letter in a way that showed he was hiding something
I looked over his shoulder but he kept moving it from me
"Harry who wrote to you?" I asked again

He closed the letter and took his wand out
I knew he was going to get rid of it, before he could i non verbally brought it to me and opened the letter
I read it out loud

Dear Harry,

I don't know who the Half Blood Prince could be, I know you said it was dated for my years in school but no one I knew went by that name publicly.
I wish I could be of more help, let me know if you find any more information about it. I'll be at the burrow for Christmas, the day before I should say. I've made arrangement for Cora to be with Charlie when I arrive, I want to discuss your theories on the possibility of you know who being a death eater with you.
See you soon

Remus Lupin

I stared at the paper
I felt my feeble heart shatter
"He writes back to you" I said softly

Harry took the paper from my hand and set it on fire
"He loves you I know he does" Harry tried consoling me
I saw Hermione put her book down and put her hand out for me to hold but I didn't grab it
I wiped my cheeks clear of emotions that fell from my eyes, but they wouldn't stop getting wet

"I've done so much fucking crying this year" I said in between my sobs "I'm so sick of feeling this way" I got up from my seat
I saw my friends get up with me but I didn't wait for them
I ran
To where I wasn't sure but I ran as fast as I could

I found an empty classroom and shut myself inside of it
I heard footsteps run past my door, I knew that was my friends
I didn't stop them

I was used to being alone until i went to school
I let myself make friends
I let myself fall in love
I let myself feel
"I can't do this" I said through my sobs
"No one is allowed in anymore"

I passed my Apparation class
Like the first lesson I was told to stand by Draco, Hermione was on my other side
We had a class of only 15 students, out of 15 only 4 passed today
Draco, Hermione, myself, and some Hufflepuff I didn't care to remember the name of
I didn't look at Draco the entire time, I focused on getting to the outside of Hogsmeade like we were instructed and I did
I was the first to jump there, Hermione landed beside me and Draco landed behind me
Once we received our grades Hermione and I walked to the carriages and went back to the castle

"I knew you would be fine this time" she said sitting beside me, she lovingly played with my hair that was in need of maintenance

"Yeah" I said back
She meant well, she wanted to help like my other friends did
But I was truly lost now
The only person who could help me out of my depression again wasn't speaking to me

The train ride to kings crossing was quiet for me
I faked sleeping, laying my head on Ron's shoulder the entire ride
I didn't want to go to the burrow
I didn't want to go to Romania anymore
I wanted a place I could call home, a place no one knew existed
When we arrived at the platform, Ron poked my head
"We're here"

I nodded my head and reached for my bags, my arm was still in a sling I was told a few more days of rest for it
Harry saw I was going for my bags so he grabbed them for me instead
I nodded my head in thanks

We got off of the train, I saw Molly and Arthur Weasley waving to us
Ginny walked over to her family, Ron and Hermione did the same thing
Her parents were going away for the holiday so she planned to stay at the Burrow
Harry didn't move
He looked at me, watching for what I was going to do

I heard my name being called over, Harry's as well
But we didn't move
I didn't go for my bag, I already had my wand on me
The only thing I needed to apparate with
"Don't you dare" Harry said to me

I saw his hand let go of my bag and reach for me, but I moved before he got close enough
I left the station and apparated to my old house, the beaten run down manor I grew up in