Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Twenty One

The way back to the common room felt longer than usual
I didn't want to leave Draco in there, I wanted him to walk me back
I wanted him to be near me
I wanted him
When I left I tried avoiding Crabbe and Goyle outside the doors but they waved to me in a friendly manner

The common room was quiet, looking at the clock it was 4am
I didn't want to go to my dorm room, the fire looked inviting enough for me to sit with
Part of me was surprised that no one was up, I was so used to people staying up waiting for me
I was used to Fred never going to sleep until I was
What am I going to do about him...I'll see him on holiday I know I can't avoid him
Hermione is going to the burrow, so unless I wanted to stay here I have to go there too
Mrs.Weasley already sent a letter to me inviting me over, I suppose I could go to Romania with Charlie but I expect him to at least be at the burrow for Christmas
I was so lost in thought I didn't hear the footsteps walking behind me
A hand placed itself on my shoulder, I flinched

"Where were you?" Harry asked sitting beside me

I knew Harry wasn't asking because he was curious. He was asking because he already knew
"I went for a walk I couldn't sleep"

He nodded his head
"Where did the walk lead you?"

"What did the map say?" I looked at him accusingly

He continued to stay into the fire
"Your name disappeared on the map" he pulled it out of his sweatpants pocket "nice bracelet"

I felt my cheeks heating up and my lips scowl
"Thanks"

"So" he looked at me now, his face was unyielding "I'll ask again where did you go?"

"I walked passed the room of requirements and the door opened for me. I stayed there for a while exploring the room it was filled with old school junk"

"You know who else's name disappeared?"

"I'm sure you're going to tell me"

"Malfoy's"

"Weird"

"How'd you get that bracelet?"

I didn't break eye contact with him
"I had it in my bag already"
Lying to my friends was hard, it made me feel physically itchy. My own anxiety was causing that reaction

"Did you see him?" He asked

"No, it was a giant room. If he was in there he was quiet as a mouse. No one was with me"

I knew he didn't believe me
I knew he wanted to pester me further about Draco, but before he had the chance I heard more footsteps walking towards us

"Cora let's go to bed" Hermione grabbed my hand and led me away from Harry
He didn't say anything, just watched me walk with her to our room

Hermione didn't say anything either, but she didn't take me to my bed she took me to her own
I was already in sleep clothes, I just had to take off my sweater
When I did I saw the note Draco left me, I wanted to read it now I wanted to know what was keeping him from me this year
But I didn't
I placed it on my bedside and went into Hermione's own to sleep next to her

"Talk to me" she said

"I'm in love with Draco" I said pulling my knees up to my chest "I can't be with Fred again not when I feel this deeply for him"

She nodded her head
"But you can't be with Draco?"
She said as a question. Not accusing me of being a bad friend, not belittling my feelings, just sadness was all I could read from her emotions

I shook my head
"Harry is probably right though I'll never admit it to him...I don't think he's a death eater but I don't know what else is occupying his time so much this year...it's something so bad he won't let me in on. He's never not told me what's going on

She nodded her head
Her hand started to rub my back soothingly, the way all my friends did when I was visibly upset

"I saw him tonight" I whispered
I knew she wouldn't say anything to Harry or Ron
"I didn't plan to, but I did. He was in the room of requirements that's where he's going off the map"
Her hand continued it's soft gesture on my back
"I had sex with him, Hermione it felt so good. Nico was soft and gently. Fred was passionate. Blaise hurt me...Draco. I can't even explain how it felt, my body was on fire from the amount of love he was pouring into me his emotions were so pure. I almost was brought to tears by how much I felt, I love him so much"

"I know you do" she said solemnly "things are hard right now"

"I wish I could be with him publicly. I can't even hide with him because of Harry's obsession. He's being insane with it"

"He cares for us, he doesn't want you to get hurt. I think he feels protective over you in the same way Sirius was. Sirius would often tell Harry to keep his eyes on you before school started. They would be whispering to each other but I could hear what was being said. Sirius was afraid for your safety, he loved you deeply. His love was passed on to Harry, he thinks he's doing what's best for you by trying to keep you away from Draco"

"How do you feel about him?"

"I don't know how to feel...I know he's good to you. I know he wouldn't hurt you on purpose, but even Draco is trying to keep you away for your safety right? There is something going on that he can't explain, logically I would tell you to stay away from him"

I closed my burning eyes

"But love is love. You can't help who you've fallen for. Just be safe...if something is off be careful. I don't want to see you hurt, it scares me. If you want to meet with Draco can you tell me? I'll distract Harry"

"That's the problem I don't know when we can. It's at random I've only met with him a few times this year"

She nodded her head
"Well I'll do my best on my end to help you"

"I love you" I said to her "thank you I'll be safe"

"I love you too"