I turned around and saw my dad holding Harry from our battle The pain radiating from the two of them was enough to bring me into a full meltdown
Harry broke free from my dad who was too weakened from his heart break to hold him He went running for Bellatrix who left the room after killing Sirius
I crawled towards Sirius's lifeless body I felt gravel scrap against my exposed knees, leaving their mark on my skin "No no no no no" I said again and again When I touched his hand he felt cold, death had taken him "Oh Merlin no" I couldn't see past my tears anymore My eyes burned from the dust in the air, i pushed tears away but I couldn't get them off of my face fast enough
I started to scream cry My throat pained from my own emotions coming out, it felt like my throat was damaging again I felt two hands go around me and pull me into their chest I opened my eyes and saw my dad losing it just like I was "Sirius" he said squeezing me tightly "my beautiful brave man" he said through his own wailing
"Dad I'm so so sorry" I said through my sobbing "he—he—he pushed me out of the way" my voice cracked "why did he do that"
My dad's sobbing was enough to break the final piece of me "He loved you that's why" was the last audible thing I could hear from him
We both laid our heads onto Sirius's chest and cried I wasn't sure where Harry ran off to, I knew he went for Bellatrix and he could be the next one dead but I couldn't bring myself to leave his body It felt like someone was stabbing my chest, over and over again This loss came to me like a flood With one tear came multiple The room was silent other than the two of us losing it
I wasn't sure how long went by, but the entire room was emptied other than my dad Dumbledore and myself
He walked up to us and placed his hands on our backs "We will move his body and hold a funeral for him...but it's time to leave"
My dad got off the ground but I couldn't get myself to move "He didn't deserve this" I held Sirius's frozen hand "he shouldn't be dead"
"I know" Dumbledore said "I'm very sorry for your loss, both of you"
My dad didn't say anything he just slowly took my arm and tried lifting me off the ground, but I shook him off easily and laid my head on his body again "I can't leave"
"Staying here doesn't help anyone" Dumbledore said
"But if I leave...if I leave that means this is real" I said breaking again "it means he's gone"
I heard my dad walk away, there wasn't anything he could do he was never good with words I heard a crack of apparation, and knew he was gone now I heard multiple cracks, and heard footsteps coming closer to us
"Cora, Kingsley is here with Alastor. They are going to move his body now" Dumbledore lifted me off his body and handed me over to Charlie
Charlie pulled me into his chest where I cried more "Charlie this is real" I said
He nodded his head and held me tightly He rubbed my back as I laid my head on his chest "It is Cora, I'm so sorry"
Charlie apparated with me after they removed Sirius's body The last thing I saw was Sirius's eyes stare into my own This is my fault
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We apparated to the burrow I knew he brought me here to be with Fred but I would have rather of been alone Nothing anyone could say to me would make this better I haven't felt this broken since...since Nico
Charlie held me as we walked through the corn field and into view of the rest of the Weasley's I looked from his chest towards the house and saw Fred waiting for me with Molly, who was holding onto something
Fred ran towards us I let go of Charlie while he passed me over to him Fred pulled me into his chest and I sobbed again "Cora I'm so sorry"
I was sick of it Sick of hearing everyone say how sorry they were for me "This is my fault"
"No it's not" Fred said "don't say that"
I looked up at him "It's my fault!" I yelled "I went after Bellatrix. I should have left but I didn't. ITS MY FAU—" I couldn't get any the words out I felt my throat be consumed by excruciating pain I placed my hands around my throat "M-m-my voice" I could feel it slipping again
"Don't speak" Fred said
"I'm sorry Sirius" I whispered I took one of my hands and started scrapping at my throat "You're dead b-b-because of me"
Fred's grip tighten around me, enough so that I couldn't scratch at my throat
Molly walked over to us and held me as well "I'm so sorry"
"Stop" I said to her "you hate me, don't a-act like you don't n-now because h-he's gone" I pushed her away from me, knocking out the item she held
She picked it back up and dusted it off "Cora, I've never hated you. I just never knew how to love you" she unfolded the item in her hands "this is your sweater...it took me longer to make because I had to enchant it. I made it warm for you"
I felt my consciousness falling "Where is my d-dad?"
"We're not sure" Charlie said "he left before we did, want me to find him?"
"He hates me..." I said The last conscious words that came out from my broken soul I felt my body slipping, but Fred held onto me tightly as I fell down to the ground I felt him lift me up again in his arms and walk with me inside the burrow Once we reached the front door my mind passed into unconsciousness
