Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Twenty Three

Hermione and I were the first to leave, I didn't wait to see if anyone followed us to my next class
Hermione went to muggle studies, I went to Care of Magical Creatures
After dropping her off at her class, I walked outside alone
I looked down at Draco's bracelet
I hope he doesn't get into more trouble

The sun was hiding, clouds covered her and snow was packed onto the ground
Trucking my way to his cabin was more effort in the cold, but I knew once I got there I could have a peaceful 45 minutes
I tightened my scarf and grabbed my thick wool gloves from inside my pocket and readied myself for the brutal walk

The wind blew me around, I took one step at a time having to hold my ground when it blew the hardest
For once I wished I had someone taking this class with me who could steady my body and keep me warm
By the time I got to Hagrid's hut I was frozen to my core
My hair was a mess and my lashes had snow stuck to them
I knocked a few times but he didn't answer
I heard Fang bark but Hagrid didn't answer me
I tried opening the door but it was locked
"Are you kidding me" I said feeling defeated "why wouldn't he send me a note about class being canceled" i scrunched my frozen nose

I looked back at the castle and sighed heavily
"Back up i go"

By the time I got back inside I was full of sneezes and shivering worse than before
"Did you not see the post?" I heard Ron say

I looked to where the voice was coming from and saw him and Harry sitting on a window sill, watching Peeves create havoc on new students who were lost

"Clearly not" I said pissed "why didn't you stop me?"

"We thought you saw" Harry said
Both of them were giving me a stink eye, their emotions were biting my cold throat

"Why are you guys annoyed I'm the on-on-one" I sneezed "sick now"

"Harry's annoyed because he was tracking someone and lost sight of him. He left the map in our dorm, I'm annoyed because Lavender won't leave me alone" Ron said crossing his arms

"Lavender won't leave you alone? She's your girlfriend" I said confused

"Yeah well she's clingy" he said scoffing

"Following someone huh" I said getting more agitated "leave him alone Harry"

"No" he said back staring at me "you would do well to listen to your own advice"

"Are you my care taker?" I asked crossing my own arms across my chest

"Sirius asked me to look after you, he did every year we knew him. Your dad isn't helping, someone should look out for your well being"

I laughed
"No one did for the longest time you think I need someone now??"

"Yes" he said in a manner that left for no arguments

I left the corridor and found myself walking up the stairs
Again
Again
Again
Until I made it to the room of requirements
I didn't see Goyle or Crabbe walking around the halls so I knew Draco wasn't here
I don't know why I was looking for him, I told myself I would leave him alone
I didn't want to stress him out further
But when I'm feeling vulnerable I've always felt I needed him near me
I need to learn to stand on my own again

Classes ended, students were allowed to sign up for Apparation classes earlier in the week and I did
I knew how to, but legally I wanted to take the class so I could use it outside of school
I skipped lunch by studying in the library
I didn't feel hungry, it's possible my depression is creeping in again or it's from the sickness I caught from walking in the blizzard outside
Every few minutes I was sneezing, the few students who surrounded me glared each time I made a noise
I stared at my books, I felt like I couldn't focus
I can't remember the last time I was sick, like a normal one not from my condition

Apparation classes were being held in the Dining hall
None of my friends were in the library with me, when I knew it was time to start walking that way I closed my books used my wand to return them and walked alone to the hall

Inside the dining room was my whole 6 year class, I saw my friends in the middle of the room Hermione waved me over
I walked to her and stood in silence
Harry and Ron were talking about Quidditch strategies, I couldn't find myself to care about their conversation
Hermione held my hand tightly and let me lean my head on her shoulder
I noticed how much I was shaking again, I pulled my school scarf closer to my face to bring some kind of warmth to my system

"Hello!" A cheery male said to our group
I looked around for the only face I cared to see, I didn't see him anywhere
I assumed he was too busy to take this class, like he was too busy to play quidditch
Like he was too busy to be with me
I shut my eyes tight
He's protecting me, he's not avoiding me

"My name is Wilkie Twycross, I work for the ministry and I am here to teach you lot how to Apparate"
He continued to trail on, giving advice to students who hadn't heard of Apparation before and explaining what a splinch is
I closed my eyes on Hermione's shoulder and tuned him out
I didn't realize how badly i was feeling until this moment
I should have gone to Madame Pomfrey but I wanted to take this class to pass Apparation before holiday came

"Alright, I will need you all to start in the circles towards the back of the hall. I prefer everyone to be in order of the alphabet if you will listen for your name i will instruct you on where to go"

Hermione went first in our group, G was pretty close to the beginning of the circles 
I looked at Harry and Ron, both of them had looks of concern for me
I ignored it like I ignored the itching I felt from their emotions

"Lupin,Cora" my name was called
I walked to where he was pointing and stayed in my circle
I pulled my arms in tight to my chest and sneezed
I made myself dizzy from how hard I whipped my head

"Malfoy, Draco"