Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Sixty Five

Harry and Ron looked like they wanted to say something, but it was Hermione who brought an ending to the silence that was created

"So he has your wand and you have his...his mum helped you to escape...and he healed you?"

"yes?" I said like it wasn't hard to understand. To me it wasn't of course, I always knew there was a softer side to him. Times like this I had to remind myself they didn't know that side, they only knew of the Draco who was out killing innocent people

"What was the purpose for his helping?" she asked, a tinge of concern washed over me but I ignored it like I did when I felt something from my dad

"What do you mean? He loves me that was the purpose" I said feeling defensive 

"We don't want you to get hurt is all" Ron said chiming in "what if he did this to just use again you later? like what if his wand is cursed"

I scoffed "his wand isn't cursed. Ive used to since being rescued" 

"He has our gratitude" Hermione said "for helping you, his mum too. But--"

"How about we move on?" I knew we werent going to get anywhere with this conversation "It was mentioned that we would go find the Horcruxes together but Harry you're not seriously going to leave Ginny are you?" 

Ron looked at his best friend, waiting for his reply. It seemed that he hadnt mentioned this to anyone but me yet

"She knows its important. She'll be with her mum and dad"

"You're telling me you're ok with missing the birth of your child?" Having a dad that wasn't around when I was younger impacted my reaction to his answer. If my dad had raised me like he was meant to, I would have had the life I deserved. Ron didn't like his answer either 

"You're going to leave my sister like that? We failed the first year and youve failed since trying to find these mysterious items. What if we're gone for years, it could happen"

"Ill visit"

I rolled my eyes, Ron did the same 

"If we are on a top secret mission like this none of us are visiting anyone outside of our group. We can't afford to be distracted" 

"Ginny understands"

"I can't believe you're abandoning them" 

"Im not abandoning anyone" Harry was on the defense now "You three have no hope in finding the Horcruxes without me. Im the only one who has an attachment to them, you'll be picking up every piece of garbage hoping it has a soul attached"

"He has a point" Hermione said 

Ron and I looked at her stunned. It seemed the room was split on which was the right side, but we dropped it. If Harry wasn't having a baby this wouldn't be an issue for me, it wouldn't be an issue if it wasn't Ron's sister either. We wouldn't agree and just like the Draco problem it was dropped to save face. 

"We leave after the wedding?" 

Harry nodded his head

"Might be harder to get you away now that Charlie is going to be next to you the entire time" Ron said "which was weird by the way"

"Charlie is an older brother to me, he doesn't like what Fred and I have been doing these years and I think this was his way of putting a stop to it. He knows ill keep letting Fred in if he's persistent enough. Claiming to be my date was a way to stop him from bothering me"

"You know" Ron added, now feeling bad for his twin brother "He loves you more than anything. He's truly devoted to you and was broken when you said no to his proposal. You could be with him again and be happy?"

Ron said the thing I let myself lose sleep over nightly. Be Happy. It seemed so easy for my friends, they love their partners. Would do anything for them. I used to love Fred that much, he used to be my world, I remember when I couldn't decided between him and Draco. Now that choice was easy, if I had to be unhappy for the rest of my life I would be. I would rather that than be without him

"But she wouldn't be happy" Hermione said "if that would have made her happy she would have agreed" 

"Your mum was right I was using him these last few years. Not in the way she thought im sure, but I had no right to be intimate with him. He loved me, I lost feelings for him my last year of school. He was someone I had found comfort in at one point and it was nice having sex with someone familiar. But I didn't set a boundary, I let him think I held feelings still"

"This is a hard time to be in, don't hold blame on yourself for wanting to feel normal" Harry said 

"When this is finally over, we plan to have an actual wedding. One I hope you are still going to help me plan" Hermione moved from Ron's side to my own

"Of course" 

The wedding was beautiful. Even with the fear of death eater, so many wizards and witches showed up. Most of them were speaking French, I spoke very little but I could understand some of what was being discussed. Some seemed concerned about the current times, some were afraid to be there but wanted to feel normal. Like most of us, we just want to celebrate a moment of love instead of weep over the ones filled with hate. 

A giant tent was set up in the woods away from the burrow, there was a large opening that was big enough for a group this size. Fred George Arthur and my dad helped to set up the tent, Moody set up defense barrier with Charlie Harry and Ron. We used the same ones everywhere we went, I could say them backwards at this point. I helped Hermione with setting up lights around the lot, we had string lights in the shape of light bulbs and we made sure to surround the area with white flower petals for Fleur. She wanted a typical white wedding, the guest had to be in black or blue, she would be the only one in white. Blue was her favorite color, it reminded her of the sea where her and Bill were currently residing next to. Molly stayed with Ginny who was allowed out of the burrow only when the wedding started and back when it ended. A tent is harder to protect than a house, she agreed. She knew we would be leaving today as well, I noticed her and Harry whispering to each other a lot this morning at breakfast.

My dad stayed by my side whenever available. We haven't had this much time together in five years, there was so much I wanted to talk to him about but there was never enough time. We would stand with each other and drink water or eat a small meal, then be off doing more wedding planning. Being near him brought warmth, I couldn't deny my powers coming back anymore. I didn't want to feel the harder ones again, but warmth was so inviting. The feeling of love was the only thing that warmed my cold body, my dad carried so much for me.