Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

Two Hundred Twenty Seven

Why do I find myself here when I'm the most down
This place holds only bad memories, but I find myself coming here more often than I expected

I walked inside the abandoned home, I could see my younger self sitting in the corner as I was being abused
The walls echoed his haunting voice, telling me things I knew to be true then and now
Worthless
Waste of space
Unloveable
I walked up the stairs, to the room I knew too well
I could see images of sleepless nights, my small fragile body laying on what I called a bed
Blood stained the mattress, the sheet I used to use as a blanket was torn up like it was when I first got it
He brought it from a rubbish bin outside of the ministry, he didn't like to spend money on me
No one bothered to check on me here
No one intervened when I was hurt here
"I wish I died here"
If I had died I wouldn't have been able to be hurt so many times by people I thought loved me

I heard a pop of Apparation
The only two people who knew where this place was were Hermione and Draco
They searched here when I went missing years ago, I knew it was Hermione before I even needed to look out the window

I heard her race inside, calling my name
"Cora please I know you're here"
She ran up the stairs and opened the door
I apparated again before she got close enough to grab me

Stupid fucking bar
I apparated to the bar I used to call home, the only ones who knew about this place were Charlie and Sirius
Sirius wasn't going to come find me
I haven't been the same since he passed, he was more of a father to me than my own
My dad didn't bother coming to rescue me when I was here, he didn't go looking for me when I was kidnapped
Sirius did
But he's dead because of me

I opened the door, the bartender looked at me and then at who was sitting at his bar top
"Cora you're coming with me" Charlie said getting up from his seat "enough of this self pity"

"Self pity?" I said back

"You're stronger than this. I don't need to know what's going on to know that to be true"
I didn't say anything back, he got out of his chair and placed money down on the counter
"We can do this the easy way or the hard way"

I didn't say anything still
He chuckled
"The hard way it is"
He ran for me but i apparated again

A forest with a deep cave
I knew this was the place I found shelter in when Corban didn't pick me up from kings crossing years ago
I was as broken then as I am today, all those years of healing have gone to waste
I let that happen
I let people in just so they could hurt me

I walked into the cave and laid down on a pile of leaves that were crushed
Some large animal takes use of this now, hoping it would come kill me i closed my eyes and fell asleep
No one knew of this place, no one found me here when I was at my weakest
No one would find me now

A few days had passed, i apparated around town to steal food
I could have used my bank to pay but that would mean using Draco's money and I didn't want his help
Today was the day before Christmas, my dad was going to be at the burrow
Unless Harry warned him I knew of his plan
The full moon was in a few days I was actually surprised he would want to show himself
He usually was away for the whole week

I waited until it was nightfall, i apparated to the burrow
As close as I could get at least, they had protection spells all around the house
The spells only let a certain amount of people in, with luck my name was in the enchantment
If it wasn't I would just go back to my cave

I walked up the barrier, nothing stopped me from walking forward
Meaning they knew I would show up here

I heard laughter in the house and saw Ginny with Harry a few floors up
Harry saw me and I watched him race down the house
He ran outside and pulled me in tight
I felt him grabbing my wand, I let him
"Why did you take off??" He demanded

I saw a few faces exit the house
Ginny was looking at me with the same look of concern the rest of the party was
My throat was so itchy, it felt like I swallowed a hive of bees
I went to start scratching but I couldn't move my hands
Harry held me too tight I couldn't move
I saw my dad exit the house with Tonks by his side
The first time I've seen him in months, I couldn't read a single emotion from him
Nothing warmed my body
Nothing made me itch
I didn't taste anything tart, sweet, bitter
No emotions laid in his body for me

Harry pulled me away to look at me
"Where have you been??"

Before I could answer his questions, I heard Apparation happening behind us
I turned to look and saw nothing
Harry walked in front of me, being on the defense as well
I heard my name being called, it sounded like Fred
But I didn't move

The cornfield outside the Weasley's home started to sway but without wind blowing it around
We heard laughter, a voice the two of us recognized right away
Bellatrix

Harry gave me my wand back but continued to stand in front of me
Bellatrix walked out of the field smirking
"Hello" she said
Fire erupted behind her body, I saw flashes of Apparation at least 6 now entering the field

She glared at Harry and I, then went running back to the field through the flames
I didn't think I just moved, I ran for the path that she took
Her path was open, I knew it was a trap but I didn't care
She was screaming how she killed Sirius Black
I wanted her dead