Death Eaters Daughter Part Two

One Hundred Ninety Three

Weeks went by
I was an empty shell again
Everytime I felt whole, I broke
I'm not meant to be whole that's why

I lifted my head from Fred's chest
We haven't moved much since I returned here
My bags were sent here from school, but this wasn't my home
My home was supposed to be with my dad and Sirius in the center of London
Fred hasn't said anything, he has just held my broken pieces together
I've gotten up to use the restroom and that's all
Fred has brought me food but it's just molded in the corner
He stopped bringing me anything after the first few weeks
He knew I was lost

Draco hasn't lettered me here, I'm not sure if it's because he doesn't know that I'm here or that he is in trouble
His dad was arrested, along with the rest of the death eaters they could retrieve
Corban and Bellatrix were some of the few who escaped
Of course

Fred didn't know how to tend to me now
I felt he stopped trying after he stopped bringing me food
I didn't want his comfort anymore, but I couldn't bring myself to leave his side
I couldn't bring myself to do anything

Weeks again
More weeks have gone by
My dad hasn't bothered trying to contact me
I haven't seen him since that day he left without taking me with him
I knew he was mourning Sirius's loss
But I needed him too...
I needed someone who felt just as I did
But he hates me

I finally found myself able to leave Fred's side
He didn't stop me, he let me get up and begin walking out of the room

I walked downstairs where I saw Molly and Arthur in the middle of a conversation
  "Cora dear are you hungry?" Molly asked

I saw the sweater she knitted for me sitting beside her
I shook my head no

  "Cora" Arthur said

I looked up at him

He didn't say anything after that
I knew he saw how broken I was
He was another one who didn't stop me when I exited the building

I wasn't sure where I was going
But I walked through the cornfield and towards the woods
My path was filled with dead leaves and broken trees
I didn't notice I was going in the direction of my old house until I smelt the familiar smell of death

I saw my old building in front of me now
That meant I was walking for longer than I realized
I went up to the front door, it was busted in
This was never home for me either

I walked into the building and let all the memories of my childhood flood into my mind
These memories couldn't hurt me now
Nothing can hurt someone who's already gone

I curled up in a corner, one that was permanently stained with my blood, and held myself
No one could help me
The only ones who ever pulled me out of my darkness were Fred Draco and Sirius
Fred stopped caring for me
Draco wasn't trying
Sirius is dead

Hours went by, nightfall has come for me
There were no working lights in this building, i let the darkness engulf me like I did years and years ago

The next day I got up and began walking towards London's center
Another path I knew well

The path lead me to the old bar I hung around
The one where Sirius saved me when I was broken after losing Nico
He wouldn't save me this time though

I opened the front door and was greeted by the smell of old men and bourbon
  "You're back huh" the barkeep said "the usual?"

I nodded my head and sat in my chair
The chair I held up too many times
I wasn't there for long though
Not even long enough to get a drink
I felt a pair of hands go on my shoulder and pull me from the bar
  "She won't be needing that" Charlie said "Cora you're coming with me, I'm the only one who can help you"

  "No one can help me" I said but I let him move me from my seat and out of the building

Charlie apparated us to the campsite that was filled with Dragons and laughter
  "Fred told me where to find you, he doesn't know how to help you. I've been here with you before, I know I am the only one who can truly save you"

  "What if I don't want to be saved this time?"

Alec and Shilo walked up towards me
  "We don't care what you want, you aren't going down with us around"

I felt hot air being blown on me
I turned my body and collapsed into Cor
She wrapped her wings around me and snarled at whoever tried coming close
I didn't correct her, I just wanted to fly away
And she sensed that
She opened her wings and got down to the ground
I pulled myself onto her back and let her soar around with me
I heard multiple wings around us, I knew at least Charlie and Norbert where with us
I'm sure Shilo and Alec came along too

Cor flew me through the clouds and into the twilight sky
The moon was out fully tonight, if I wasn't in Romania I would be in pain
But I was glowing

I was shining in the moonlight, brightly even though I felt the furthest thing from being a bright light

  "He's dead" I said out loud
The first time I accepted it

  "He is" Charlie said flying beside me

  "It's my fault" I said looking at him

  "Sirius loved you, he died giving his life for yours. Don't waste it" Charlie said harshly "he wouldn't want this"

I looked up at the night sky
I saw Nico's star dancing brightly, but now I also saw Sirius's star as well
I smiled at them
The first smile I've shown in weeks

  "I love you" I said to Sirius "please watch over us, my dad Harry and I"

  "He will" Charlie said "I'm sure he won't get any rest up there either, watching over you lot"

I chuckled
  "He's a worrywart that's for sure"