Held Captive

Chapter 30-Jealous Bastard

Honmatsu tentou .

Putting the cart before the horse.

-Japanese Proverbs

Chapter 30

"Goodness! Kailangan ko pa bang iexplain yun sa'yo Rad? I should know if he's sa---"

"He's fine now. Agad dumating yung isang babaeng agent pagkatapos nating umalis." Nakahinga ako nang maluwag. Sigurado akong si Yvonne ang agent na tinutukoy niya.

"How fine? I mean can you give me details Radimir? I want to know if he's really safe –" Huminga nang malalim si Radimir at parang nagpipigil ng galit. Nagtatanong lang ako! Anong masama doon? Ang ikli masyado ng pasensya niya.

"I want you to know that I'm not okay with this Eva. Pero dahil sa gusto mong malaman ang kalagayan niya, sinasabi ko ito sa'yo kahit labag sa loob ko. If you want complete details, I'll give it to you tomorrow."

"Labag sa loob huh? Nagtatanong lang ako. Anong masama doon?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay at nakitang kong kinuyom niya ang kaniyang mga palad.

"I don't like you talking about other men when I'm with you! I don't want you to think of other guys when you were supposed to be thinking of me!"

"Cut it Rad! Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ka nagagalit! You know what.." I inclined my head to the side and I squinted at him. "You sound like a jealous bastard."

He also inclined his head at his side and stared at me dangerously. "Maybe because I'm a jealous bastard."

I'm waiting for him to laugh. Or at least he will give me his sarcastic smirk. But none came. He just continue to stare at me without saying another word.

My heart started to beat rapidly in my chest. But I will never let him know how I was affected by his words. I put on a calm face and smile at him seductively. He's tricking me. He's playing with me. And I swear I can also play his game.

"Sorry Rad. But you're not my type."

Agad siyang lumapit sa aking harapan Inilagay niya ang kaniyang dalawang palad sa magkabilang sides ng sandalan ng upuan ko. Itinulak niya ito nang bahagya pero nakakapit pa rin ang kaniyang mga kamay sa sandalan. Yung dalawang paa ng upuan na nasa harapan ay umangat. Kaya yung daalawang paa ng upuan na nasa likod ang tanging sumusuporta sa bigat ko. Tumaas din sa sahig ang aking tsinelas.

"Really I'm not your type?" He leaned closer to me. I raised my hands stopping him from leaning down. My palms were flat on his chest. Our noses almost touching. "What's your type then? Boys who will give you flowers and chocolates? Boys who will text you sweet messages? Those who will take you to romantic restaurants? I'm not that kind of man, Eva. But I could kill for you. I will kick the ass of those people who would try to hurt you. I can even betray the Tenebrous if you just ask me to."

We stared breathlessly at each other's eyes after he said those words. My heart was beating loud I think it will explode. In a reason that I couldn't—didn't want—to explain.

When I can't take the intensity of his stare anymore, I lowered my gaze to avoid his eyes. Wrong move. My gaze was shifted from his eyes to his lips. I gulped. I fight the urge to pull him against me. I fight the urge to kiss him.

Itinaas ko na lang muli ang aking paningin pabalik sa kaniyang mga mata. And I was shock to see him staring at my lips too. Sweat prickled on my forehead. His face was still close from mine. Hinanap ng mga paa ko ang sahig upang gawing suporta sa mga nanghihina kong tuhod. Ngunit nakalimutan kong nakaangat nga pala ang aking mga paa. Hindi ko na talaga kinaya ang paninitig ni Radimir kaya nag-iwas ako ng tingin at iniharap ko ang mukha ko sa gilid. Mukha namang natauhan na siya sa ginawa ko kaya ibinaba niya na ang upuan at bahagyang lumayo sa akin.

"I'll give you the complete details about Jackson tomorrow." Walang emosyong niyang sabi at tuloy-tuloy na siyang lumabas ng pinto. Huminga ako nang malalim nang mawala na siya sa paningin ko. Ni hindi ko na naman namalayan na pinipigilan ko pala ang paghinga ko kanina. Kinakabahan ako sa hindi ko malamang dahilan.

Is't because I'm so worried for Jackson? Is't because of Radimir's words? Is't about his British Accent that makes his voice alluring?

Or is't because of his lips?

Urgh! Kill me now!