A Sudden DATE (Judal x Reader)

Will to Live

"A blood transfusion will be needed and maybe a surgery as well. That's what the doctor said."

Gyokuen came out of the room Judal was in and informed you and Kouha about Judal's situation.

They would start the blood transfusion soon.

Gyokuen, although she seemed just a tiny bit worried, she soon left for work. She asked you and Kouha to look after him.

That was actually better for you though. You were both mentally plagued and didn't have the inner strength to talk with Gyokuen at the moment.

Sitting at the hospital chairs right outside the room Judal was in.

Kouha was looking down, his hands in a praying like stance.

You hugged him, like a mother would her children, trying to calm him down.

You did not have the strength to say everything will be alright though....

Your mind was full of "what if"s....

What if Judal never woke up again...?

Why was it that now... when you finally found someone you loved... someone you felt you wanted to protect... someone to be by your side forever.... Why did you have to lose that...?

The suicide attempt plan was a bad idea. But you weren't gonna blame Hakuyuu or Hakuren or Kouha or even Gyokuen for what happened...

You were blaming yourself for not putting a stop to it before it was too late.

Your heart was pounding like crazy.

This was the first time you felt such a strong love. Losing it would be....

....disastrous....

But... despite trying to avoid it... you couldn't.

The reason Judal did this...

Why would he do something like this...?

Was he not happy? Maybe he actually was sad when with you? That's why he decided to die?

Maybe... Maybe he got too tired of reality....

Maybe if you were more careful, if you took better care of him....maybe if you had moved earlier, this wouldn't have happened.

You had decided not to have regrets but... regrets just kept forming in your mind.

You probably started trembling because Kouha hugged you too.

Some hours passed.

Kouha, as the child he is, fell asleep right there.

The doctor came out of the surgery room.

You stood up in a second and moved towards him.

"Doctor, how is he?"

"...I am quite sorry to say but...."

"But!?"

"...we still don't know. His situation is critical. It still hasn't stabilized. From now on it all depends on his will to live."

Hearing that, you felt worry overcome you.

The doctor left there. He said it was okay for you to go in as long as you were quiet.

Going closer to him you started whispering things to him...

Things like, how Kouha was crying outside now, or how yesterday Kougyoku and Hakuryuu were all blushing.... Or even how you found a big cockroach in your house yesterday.

Halfway through, you started crying. Keeping up that smile was difficult for you.

In between your sobbing you were still talking.

"Judal-kun....if...you get to come back... we can go eat crepes...or maybe go karaoke again...Or we can sleep together..... we can do so many more things..... life is still nice.... so please....don't die....if you die...I feel like.....I will start cursing this destiny....the destiny that let us meet just to take you away...."

That was when you heard Judal mumble something.

It felt like he was saying a "yeah"

Maybe it was just your imagination, but that mumbling gave you hope...

Judal still hasn't woken up...

Tomorrow is close to coming...

To be continued........
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This got long. And twisted. And sad. And so damn romantic. Where's the fun!? Maybe bc I am sick? I am sorry guys.... I can't believe I made ya read such a depressing thing....
(But I wanna make such a fanfic with soukoku xD)

Anyway see ya next week~