Undefined (Book #1 Joshler)

CHAPTER 5: Elsewhere

I wake up not with a headache.... With a migraine.
The blankets aren't on me, their on the floor.
The air is oddly warm.
My mind is oddly quiet.

The day just started and I already hate it.
The nurse is still dressed in white.
The cup is still filled with medication.
The medication is still flavorless.
The water is still warm.
The therapist is still Dr. Varrence.

I'm not in the mood to talk, last night drained me.
"Hello Tyler"
I stare blankly ahead.
"I thought you said I'd see you today?"
I make no movements to show I hear her.
"I got them to turn your heat up..."
I want to walk around but I have no motivation to move.
"I talked to them about letting you paint the walls... I didn't get an answer yet... They said they'll think about it."
I remain silent and unmoved.
"Can I get you something? Something to eat?"
Still nothing.
I feel numb.
My brain is numb.
I don't feel anything, no emotion.

"I know you don't want to talk but I have to stay in here until our times up if you don't mind."
I inhale deeply, hold. Exhale.

Everything is quiet.
I want to cry.
I want to scream.
I want to punch something.
I want to go home.
I want to go back to the days where nothing really mattered.
I want to go back to when I was normal.
I want to be normal.
I'll never be normal.

I slowly pull my knees up to my chest.
I hug my knees.
My chin rests in between them.
A single tear slides down my cheek.
I stare blankly ahead.

"Tyler? Are you okay? Why are you crying?"
I could hear Dr. Varrence but her voice was distant.
"Tyler?"
More tears fell.
Dr. Varrence leaves.
She comes back with a few nurses.
"Tyler?" a nurse is talking.
"Tyler can you hear me?"
Yes I can but I can't speak, I can't move.
"Go get Dr. James" A nurse stated.
Things started going fuzzy and I could barely hear the voices.

I see a hand waving in front of me but I don't acknowledge it.
"Tyler, it's me.... Dr. James.... I need you to look at me."
I still don't move
"Tyler please do something, anything"
I can't.
I want to.
I want to move, but I can't.
I want to speak, but I can't.

Dr. James told everyone to leave.
It was just me and him.
"Tyler, I need you to do something. Talk, move, anything."
My throat hurts.
"I'm going to call your parents.... I'm going to leave a nurse in here with you til I get back."
And that's exactly what happened.
Dr. James went to call my parents.
A nurse sat in a chair by my bed.
I sat on my bed starring at nothing.

THIRD PERSON VIEW
(dr.james * mrs. Joseph)

"Hello? Mrs. Joseph? It's me again... Dr. James."
"Hi Dr. James... Whats wrong? You sound worried."
"I am worried... Tyler hasn't said anything at all today he hasn't moved from his bed. He's just been starring at nothing. He won't acknowledge anyone."
"Oh.. Why is he doing this?"
"Um were not sure.. He had another episode last night but this one was different then others."
"How so?"
"Well he broke nurse Kyles nose, he started running, then he just dropped to the floor and cried..... He said he wanted to leave... He said he can't do this and he doesn't want to do this... I don't know what he meant by that."
"Oh dear... What are we going to do?"
"I guess the only thing we can do is monitor him until he decides he wants to speak or move."
"Okay how about giving me a call when he does something?"
"Will do... Maybe you should come to visiting hours today... That might get him to move."
"Okay if you think it will help... I'll see you in a few hours."
"Alright, see you soon Mrs. Joseph. Bye."
"Bye."

Dr. James went back to Tyler's room.
The nurse, still sitting in the chair.
"Has he done anything while I was gone?"
The nurse shakes her head no.
Dr. James sits on the bed next to Tyler.
"Tyler ... Your parents are coming to visiting hours today..."
Nothing no movement whatsoever.
"Nurse Bella's going to stay with you for today so if you need anything let her know"
It seemed as though Tyler was here physically but mentally he was elsewhere.

"Nurse Bella let me know if he does anything."
"Will do Dr. James."
Dr. James leaves.

TYLER'S VIEW

I'm tired.
I'm tired of this place.
I'm tired of these people.
I'm tired of the food.
I'm tired of the medication.
I'm just tired.

My migraine has gotten worse.
I want to throw up.
I want to ask for a pain killer to make it stop.
I can't tell the nurse though.

I'm still crying.
I'm not sure why though.
I don't feel sad.
I don't feel happy either.

I haven't moved at all.
I want to though.
I want to just run.
Run as fast and as far as I can.
I don't want to run to a certain place.
I just want to run elsewhere.
I want to be elsewhere.