Undefined (Book #1 Joshler)

CHAPTER 52: The Real Tyler

JOSH'S VIEW ~

I watched in horror as Tyler's body lay unmoving.
"Is he dead?" I shakily asked hoping and praying he was still alive.
"No he's alive but we need to get this fixed now." Dr. James said picking Tyler up and carrying him out of the room.
I turned to look at Dr. Varrence.
She looked at me as well.
"Come on we need to get these cuts taken care of." she said weakly.
I nodded and helped her walk down the hall, she told me where to go.
We went to one of the nurses offices.
A nurse cleaned up the wounds.

TYLER'S VIEW ~

Slowly I woke up.
My vision blurring in and out.
I closed my eyes again.
I felt weak and sick.
I want to sleep.
"Tyler no hey Tyler don't go back to sleep."
I opened my eyes again.
Dr. James stood over me waving a hand in front of my face.
I now took notice to the oxygen mask I was wearing.
I looked around tuning in all my senses to the area.
Smells, undefined, as always.
Sounds, beeping, and my deep breaths.
Sights, bright lights, wires, Dr. James, and a nurse.
No tastes.
There's something on my wrist.
I stretched my fingers out.
A bandage is on my wrist.
There's an IV in my hand.
There's a blanket on me.
My eyelids heavy.
My eyes landed back on Dr. James.
"Hey can you hear me?"
I gave a slight nod.
"Okay I'm going to ask you some questions okay?"
I gave another tiny nod.
"Do you remember what happened?"
I nodded.
"Are you in any pain?"
I shook my head no.
"Do you want anything?"
I shook my head no.
"Are you sure?"
I nodded.
"Okay do me a favor. Don't go to sleep."
I nodded.
Dr. James picked up a clipboard and walked away.
I wasn't going to listen to him. I'm tired. I'm going to sleep.
I let my eyes fall shut.
"Tyler don't sleep."
Josh?
Why is he still here?
Why didn't he leave?
Why doesn't he hate me?
I opened my eyes and turned my head to the side.

There Josh sat on a chair next to me.
He gave a small smile.
A bandage was wrapped around his arm.
The corner of my mouth twitched into a small smirk thinking back on what happened.
I laid there staring at him for a few minutes.
"Why are you staring at me?"
He asked.
"Why are you still here?" I croaked.
He looked at the ground then back up at me.
"Because I love you."
He loves me?
Like I know he's said it before but I never believed him.
Does he actually love me?
"I love you so much Tyler."
No he's lying.
But what if he's not.
But what if he is.
"There's nothing you could ever do to make me stop loving you."
"Your lying."
"I'm not lying Tyler. I love you. I love you so much."
He's not lying?
He loves me?
No ones ever said that and meant it.
"Your not lying? You mean it?"
"Yes. I love you."
"Say it again."
"I love you."
"Again."
"I love you."
I closed my eyes.
"Again."
"I love you."
He loves me.
He loves? Me?
Why?
What's there to love about me?
I literally just tried to kill someone.
"Again."
"I love you."
I sighed and opened my eyes.
"Why?"
"Why?"
"Why do you love me? There's nothing to love. I'm just a crazy deranged boy who finds entertainment in hurting people. I'm literally insane. Do you hear me? I'm insane."
He smiled.
"I hear you and I love you. Every bit of you."
"Why? Josh why? Your the real one whos crazy if you love me."
"Then lock me up and throw away the key."
"You love me?"
"I love you."
"Your not pretending? People have done that before."
"I'm not pretending."
"Say it again."
"I love you."
"Again."
"I love you Tyler Joseph. I love you."
I turned my head back to face the ceiling.
I felt sick.
Really sick.

"Josh?" I breathed.
"Yeah?"
"I don't feel good."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm going to throw up."
"Oh!"
He stood up, took the oxygen mask off as quick as he could and sat me up.
As soon as I sat up I puked all over my lap.
I sat there staring at it as spit hung from my mouth.
"DR. JAMES!"
Josh yelled still holding me up.
Dr. James ran in and stared at me.
"Whats that?"  he asked.
"He threw up."
I looked up at him.
"Oh."
I felt like throwing up again.
I swallowed a few times.
"Are you okay?"
I shook my head no.
I feel so weak.
Probably from blood loss but throwing up isn't helping.
"What's wrong?"
"Gonna-"
"Be sick again?"
I nodded.
He grabbed the garbage bin and quickly put it in front of me so I wouldn't make more of a mess.
I threw up again.
Less then the first time, same disgusting taste though.
I leaned back into Josh's arm the was holding me up wanting to lay down.
Josh kept me up though.
Dr. James took the soiled bed sheet off me and made me get up and get in the other bed in the room so they could clean this one.
Josh helped me because I was too weak and lightheaded to do it by myself.
The oxygen mask was placed back over my nose and mouth.
I closed my eyes.
I need to sleep.