"JOSH!"
"Hm what?"
I was sitting in the corner of the room, my knees tightly pulled up to my chest, my eyes screwed shut, my hands gripping my hair as blurry screamed at me.
"JOSH!"
"Shit Tyler hey your okay. Shh your okay I'm here. Stop yelling its okay."
Josh ran over and kneeled in front of me.
'YOU IDIOT! DO YOU WANT JOSH TO HATE YOU MORE? YOU SHOULD'VE JUST LET HIM SLEEP! HE'S GOING TO BE MAD AT YOU FOR WAKING HIM UP! YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT CAN YOU?!?'
"Shutupshutupshutupshutup."
"Shhhhh."
'HE HATES YOU!!! YOUR PARENTS HATE YOU!!! YOUR SIBLINGS HATE YOU!!!! EVERYONE HATES YOU TYLER!!!!! THEY'LL BE HAPPIER WHEN YOUR GONE!!!!!'
"NO! STOP! SHUT UP!"
"Hey stop your okay."
Josh grabbed me and wrapped his arms around me tightly.
'YOUR NEVER OKAY! DON'T LISTEN TO JOSH! HE'S LYING TO YOU!!! HE NEVER TELLS YOU THE TRUTH! YOU DON'T DESERVE JOSH! YOU DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING!!! YOUR WORTHLESS!!!!'
"NO!"
'YES!!!!'
"STOP!"
'NO!!'
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!"
'NO!!!!'
"Shh Tyler everything's okay."
"NO!"
I gasped for air then sobbed loudly.
"Breathe Tyler. Breathe."
I drew in a sharp, shaky breath.
'WORTHLESS!'
"NO!"
'UGLY!'
"NO!"
"WASTE OF SPACE!'
"NO!!!!!!"
"Tyler. Tyler listen to me. Breathe. Calm down. Stop screaming. Your okay. Breathe Tyler."
Josh pulled away and grabbed my shoulders as he spoke.
I stared at him.
'HE HATES YOU!!!!!'
I squeezed my eyes shut again.
"NOOO!!!!!!!! STOPP!!!!"
Josh hugged me again with one arm while the other dug in his pocket.
After a few seconds he stopped and raised his arm to his head.
'DO IT TYLER!!!! END IT!!!! IT'LL MAKE EVERYONE SO MUCH MORE HAPPY!!! THEY DON'T NEED YOU!!! THEY CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE GONE!!!!!!!'
Josh was talking at the same time blurry was but I didn't catch what he said.
"NO!!! STOP!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!'
"Please hurry."
Josh said quickly before throwing something onto the bed.
He wrapped his other arm around me and rocked us whispering sweet nothings in my ear to try and calm me down.
Blurry kept screaming at me and I kept screaming back.
"Tyler calm down. Your okay."
Dr. James? Why is he here?
'DR. JAMES HATES YOU TOO!!!'
"NOOO!! STOP!!! SHUTUPSHUTUP!"
"Shhhh."
I felt myself getting ripped out of Josh's grasp.
"JOSH!!!"
I screamed struggling against the person who grabbed me, reaching my arm out for Josh.
"Sshhh baby."
I was suddenly pinned to the floor.
I opened my eyes to see countless guards and nurses surround me, holding me down.
'HIT THEM! RUN! DO IT!!!'
"NO!"
"Shhhh Tyler."
I gasped for air again.
I felt something pinch my arm but I ignored it.
Soon, my breathing slowed, my body stopped fighting against the guards and nurses and my eyes fell shut.
JOSH'S VIEW ~
After Tyler was sedated they moved him to the bed.
I crawled in next to him and held his small frame close.
"Are you okay Josh?" Dr. James asked once all the nurses and guards left.
"Yeah."
"Are you sure? Your crying."
"I know."
I hugged Tyler tighter.
Dr. James sat down on the side of the bed.
"Josh.. Are you sure your okay?"
"Yeah. Just worried."
"Understandable.... I was talking with some of the nurses and also with Dr. Varrence and we want to put Tyler back on medication.. Different ones from last time, stronger ones..... But I don't think he'll want to take them."
"Will they help him?"
"They could.. We won't know until he takes them."
"Okay. I'll make sure he takes them."
"He might get mad at you."
"I don't care. If it helps him He's taking them."
I pressed my cheek to the top of his head.
"You really care about him."
I nodded.
"Okay.. I'm going to go get the medication. I'll put it on the nightstand with some water. Try to get him to take it when he wakes up."
"Okay."
Dr. James then left to get the medication.
When came back he set two cups on the nightstand. One containing water the other containing medication.
"Do you want anything Josh?"
"No I'm okay. Thank you though."
"Okay if you need anything buzz for a guard or call me on your phone. Also call me when he wakes up and let me know if he took the medication."
"I will."
Dr. James left again.
I stayed up for about and hour or so before drifting to sleep.
YOU ARE READING
Undefined (Book #1 Joshler)
FanfictionI've been here for a while, in this same building. Most of my time spent in my room, alone. Everyday I repeat the same routine. The same boring qualities, just different days. I've come to love these qualities as boring as they are. I don't like cha...
