Unexplainable [Original Version]

[chapter twenty-nine: "in the dark"]

Chapter 29: "In the Dark"
Kevin Nash's POV

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As soon as I open my eyes, memories of last night rush back to me. I don't really want to roll and see if Scott and Kid are still here, but I know I need to. It'd be so much easier to just keep laying the way I currently am, facing my sleeping little lady. I gently kiss Jolene's forehead before releasing a silent sigh and forcing myself up.

I turn my head as I sit up, and partially to my surprise, I find Scott and Kid sitting on their bed. They've both got their legs crossed and their heads down, looking guilty as all hell; that's just how they should be. Goddamn, I don't want to deal with all of this today. I don't want to deal with all of this ever.

But, it's what has to be done. Yesterday was completely unacceptable, and I'm sure that they know that now. I wanted to give them the benefit of the doubt yesterday, but my worst fears turned out to be true.

"You two sleep well last night?" I don't mean to startle Scott and Kid, but I do. The moment I start talking, they both flinch and look in my direction. Kid looks like he wants to cry, and Scott? I've never seen him so dejected.

"As well as you'd expect." Kid replies as he rubs the back of his neck. "I don't really remember going to sleep. I don't remember getting here, either. I barely remember running into you and Joli."

"Yeah, I'd say neither of you really have many memories of yesterday." I run my hands across my face, trying to wake myself up more. "You know I want to throw you both out of the window over there, right? We're on the fourth floor, so it'd be pretty rough."

I obviously wouldn't do that, but when we were dragging their asses up here last night, the thought crossed my mind more than once. I love my brothers dearly, but Jesus Christ, this has been ridiculous.

"I wouldn't blame you if you did it." Scott gives this sad little chuckle. "If I were you, I probably would."

"Yeah," Kid agrees, nodding, "I would, too."

I haul my ass up off the bed and head to the bathroom. When I come back into the room, Joli is awake and grabbing her cigarettes. I catch her gaze for just a moment and we share this agitated little smile. I'm so sorry, babe.

Joli heads to the office chair and lights up a cigarette. I take a seat on our bed as she sits down on the chair and places her ash tray in her lap. We both look at Scott and Kid, who have since returned their gazes to the bed they're seated on.

"All right, let's start at the fuckin' beginning." I speak up after a moment, since no one else was saying anything. "Where the fuck were the two of you yesterday?"

Scott and Kid both sigh, then turn their heads towards one another. They exchange sad little looks, but when Kid goes to speak, Scott holds a hand up and stops him. Scott takes a deep breath before looking directly at me.

"It's all on me. Every little fuckin' bit of harm that was done, it was my fault. I'm the reason neither of us were there yesterday. I'm the reason we got into such stupid shit. It's all my fault." Scott rests his elbow on his knee, so that he can comfortably hold his face with one hand.

"What happened, Scott? Don't beat around the bush." Joli's so fuckin' crushed, she can barely keep the sadness out of her voice.

"Honestly? I didn't know if I could handle seeing the two of you together, now that you're basically..." Scott trails off so that he can chuckle dryly. "It's fuckin' stupid and it's fuckin' selfish, but that's what it boiled down to."