A Month Later..
Erica
I leaned against the car looking down at Lee and sighed. "So you not trynna do this again?" She shook her head without looking at me. "Why not? All this shit I've been doing.." I said.
She rolled my eyes. "All what shit? Erica you literally let me get jumped a month ago by your bitches! And didn't do shit!" She yelled. I rolled my eyes.
I get that I "let" Lee get jumped but that shit old! I'm trying to get her fucking back and she acting stubborn and shit.
"Baby I'm sorry alright? I just want to put that behind us and move forward ," I said grabbing her hand and kissed it. "Come on. I know you miss you me as much as I miss you." I said pulling her into my arms and she sighed and then I felt something go down my arm.
Lee then sniffed indicating she was crying. "Let it out." I said rubbing her back and she sniffed continuing to cry. "Lee I'm sorry. Really. I don't want to continue to fight and everything. Your my wife. I don't want to lose you. I just make bad decisions which cause bad things to happen." I explained. She sniffed listening. "I don't want to continue to make you look bad and ruin our family. Its not good for us nor the kids ," I said and it was true.
The kids hate seeing us apart. Specially Lindsey. She's seen more than her little siblings.
"Can you just forgive me and come home?"
Lee
I looked up at Erica seeing her looking dead in my eyes. You could tell they were pleading for my forgiveness.
I want to go back to her because I really love her. But I don't want to get hurt again. She's caused all this trouble in my life and every time I go back go her, she causes more.
But it's not just her fault. It's also mine. I have to make the desision to be with her again or leave and go my own way.
Its just hard to leave and turn away from someone that took your virginity, had your first child with, been through thick and thin shit with, and most importantly, grew a strong connection with.
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I love Erica Brown lying cheating ass but I don't like her dirty ways. And she can be a faithful woman. Trust me she can. She just makes bad decisions and then serve the consequences.
So should I go back to her or just I just live my life on my own? We're 37 and 36 years old and time is running out.
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"You don't thinking?" She asked me and I giggled looking away and she laughed a little. "Nah but for real Lee , wassup.."
I sighed looking at the window and shrugged. "Erica you've put me through so much shit. Not only me but our family! That's who you should be really be thinking about when we argue. I'm just .." I shook my head swallowing the tears that were tryin to come. "I'm tired... I'm tired of getting hurt by you Erica. You tell me over and over that your going to change , your going to change. But its never true! You always fuck up! You make yourself look bad and your family. Your 37 years old now! Your not in your 20s anymore! It's time to settle down and take care of our kids. Or we can just co-parent. I'm tired of this. I really am." I said truthfully.
She was silent. Her ass couldn't say shit because she know I'm telling the truth. Erica isn't slow nor is she stupid. She knows when she does wrong.
You can't blame another woman all the time for having sex because she has what that other woman wants!
"Lee I'm -"
"You say your going to change , PROVE IT! Every time you say that , you lie!" I yelled.
"I want to change Lee , I do! I just don't know how.."
I chuckled shaking my head. All these years she don't know how to change? Really Erica? Gotta be kidding me right now.
"Erica how old are you?" I asked looking at her through my glasses.
"Lee don't -"
"How OLD ARE YOU!"
"I'm 37.."
"Right.. 37. 37 and still cheating on your WIFE. Telling lies to your WIFE. Breaking promises to your KIDS AND WIFE! WHAT MORE SO YOU WANT FROM ME?!" I yelled. "Erica I'm tired okay?! I'm tired of the lies , the cheating , everything!" I yelled shaking my head and walked away for a bit.
"Lee I'm sorry alright? I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry. Your 1000% right. I'm too grown for this. Maybe we can start over. Move somewhere where there's no drama or anything. Let's get us a new home and -"
"Erica spending money on new houses and shit isn't gonna work! It's YOU who need to change. Plus your a basketball coach , why would you want to drop that just to fix our relationship. And I'm for sure not about to move the store for this either. You either fix yourself or be on your own. I'm going to let you decide ," I said before getting in my car.
"Alright. I'll go and figure some stuff out and then get back with you alright?" I nodded closing the door not really giving a fuck and started the car.
There was a knock on the door. I looked seeing Erica blowing kisses on the window.
I laughed shaking my head and drove off.
She has some thinking to do.
Erica
I got home and let Spikes out.
Lee's was right about everything. I don't know why I keep fucking her over. I hate being without and everytime I get the change the chance to get her back, I fuck up!
I'm tired of this shit. I'm deadass finna change. I said it millions of times but I am for real. My birthday coming up and so I need to go all out. I want to be able to celebrate it with Lee as well though.
I got alot to think about.
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