The Fuckboy's Girl (COMPLETED)

/Chapter 149: Last Will & Testament/

A/N: Alam kong nagulat din kayo sa nangyari sa previous chapter pero ganun talaga eh. Gaya sa life, marami tayong mae-experience na mga plot twists. Anyways, please do vote and follow me! Sipag kong mag-update noh? Wala eh. Kapag mahal mo talaga ang isang bagay, hindi ka mapapagod. Mwaah~
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Nyle

Ngayon yata ang isa sa mga pinaka malungkot na mga araw sa buhay ko. I just found out that Sebastian Feratti is my brother and the worst is our Dad committed suicide. The past few weeks kasi sinasabi na niya na gusto na daw niyang mawala para makasama na niya si Mommy Elaine. Kami naman, we keep on telling him that we are always here for him and we love him so much kaso he's not getting any better day by day. He became miserable when Mom died and after that he kept getting worse and worst. We've seen the sadness he's bearing kaso ayaw namin na masayang lang ang buhay niya kasi nandito pa naman kami for him eh. We will never let him go nor give up on him.

Kaso siya 'tong nag-give up eh. It's sad to let him go and the fact that ge ended his own life is really painful. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin nagsi-sink in sa amin na wala na siya. A piece of me died and I don't know how am I gonna cope up with this. Hindi ko alam kung paano mababago ang buhay namin ngayong wala na si Dad but as the kuya, I have to be strong for them. Ayoko na malungkot pa sila lalo kaya I will try to be as strong as I can. Ise-set aside ko muna ang sa buhay ko and I will make sure that we will be fine again.

Dinala na ng ambulance ang bangkay ni Dad sa punerarya and nandito lang kami. Nakaupo lahat sa dinning at mugto ang mga mata. Ang lungkot din ng ambiance ng bahay. I hate seeing all of them like this kaya gagawa ako ng paraan.

"So.....wala na si Dad. Tayo-tayo na lang ang nandidito ngayon. Malungkot man but it's what he wanted. Mali ang ginawa niya but let's just hope that he is happy wherever he is now and he is with Mom. We did try our best to make him feel better but we can't make him feel better because he already gave up in the first place. Dad may not be with us anymore but he will always be in our hearts. So mahirap naman but we have to go on with our lives. Let's make him and Mommy the most proud parents in heaven. May dalawa na tayong angels sa heaven, guys. We will be okay one day, okay? I love you all..." sabi ko sa kanila

"Yeah. Let's be strong this time. Let's live our lives the way they did live theirs.." sabi naman ni Heath

"Group hug naman diyan..." hirit pa ni Jarri and nagyakapan kaming lahat

Pagkatapos ng group hug ay hinanap ko agad si Sophie. Nilapitan ko siya at niyakap ng sobrang higpit.

"I love you, babe. I'm so sorry about what happened while Auntie Lucia is here. I'm so sorry if kadugo ko si Sebastian..." hinalikan ako ni Sophie sa noo

"Sssssshhhh. Babe, okay lang. You can't change the reality but you can be the start of change. Do not let hatred rule you. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nasasabi ko ito kasi pareho naman nating hate si Sebastian but I just realized that life is too short to waste your time holding grudges to someone. Let that hate go and I know someday mapapatawad din natin siya despite of all those bad things he did to us..." sabi ni Sophie sabay ngiti sa akin

I don't know how will I be without her in my life. She is my strength, my everything.

Kanina pinaalis ko sina Auntie Lucia kasi sobrang galit na galit ako. I have the right to get mad naman kasi matagal na pala nila akong kilala tapos hindi sila nagpakita and then alam din nila na kapatid ko si Sebastian tapos wala din silang ginawa. I'm not gonna lie but I still hate them for that but Sophie is true, hindi ka magiging masaya sa buhay mo kung may kinikimkim kang hatred sa puso mo. I'll just face what is already there.