I Already Found Him | On-Going

Chapter 30

Nang maka-uwi ako sa bahay galing sa Luneta Park ay nahiga agad ako sa kuwarto ko.

Pumunta kasi kami nila Dina ar Shane kanina sa Luneta Park. Hidni nakasama ang iba dahil hindi pinayagan. While Lanie, has an asthma. Sinugod daw siya kahapon sa Emergency Room. Kaya kaming tatlo na lang ang pumunta.

Pagdating namin doon ay kumain muna kami sa gilid-gilid. Para siyang karinderya pero de-pedal. Ganoon. Basta ganoon. Hahaha. Di ko alam e-explain.

Nilibot namin ang tatlong museum. Kaya ang ending ay ang sakit ng binti namin.

Then exactly 4:00 PM I became sad.

Hindi na nagcha-chat sa akin si Dobi.

Bakit? May problema ba siya?

Tapos hanggang ngayong 8:00PM hindi pa din siya nagre-reply sa chat ko, kahit naka-online naman siya.

Balik na naman sa lungkot ang buhay ko.

Pampalipas oras lang ba niya ako?

Akala ko ba hindi niya ako iiwan?

I thought... He'll be my bestfriend?

But, what happened?

He didn't chat me.

Anong nangyari sa promises niya?

Unti-unti niya na ba akong iiwan?

After ng lahat? Ganon-ganon lang yon?

Napabuntong-hininga na lamang ako.

Is this the true meaning of life?

After your happiness, it's always end up with those fucking sadness?

May pa-promise promise pa siyang nasasabi.

I told him that I won't believe to that promises. But he told me that I need to believe in him.

But now, he made me realize that all promises are always meant to be broken.

I won't believe to that promises again. Ever.

Kasalanan ko din naman ito eh. Kasalanan kong maging malungkot ulit.

I know that he will leave me someday. But I rely on him that he'll never leave me.

And now it happened.

Bakit ganoon?

Akala ko ba matigas na ako? Akala ko ba mahirap nang palambutin ang puso ko?

Pero, anong nangyari?

Pero, anong nangyari?

Nalulungkot ako? Nasasaktan ako dahil lang sa lalaking nakilala ko lang sa isang video chat.

All because of Dobi.

"Sophie, bumaba ka na. Magdi-dinner na tayo." Sabi ni mama kaya bumangon na ako at bumaba.

At kahit sa harap ng hapag-kainan ay wala akong ganang kumain. Gusto ko lang magkulong at mag-mukmok sa kuwarto.

Pagkatapos kung kumain ay pumunta naman agad ako sa kuwarto ko at naupo sa dulo ng kama.

Gusto kong bumalik sa dating ako. Yong dating hindi namamansin, yong dating walang pakialam sa iba at sa mundo. At yong dating hindi nasasaktan dahil sa isang tao.

I want to go back to those times.

Nilibot ko ang paningin ko. And I saw a thing.

Alam kong ito lang ang makakapag-pagaan ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. Kinuha ko iyon. At nagsimulang i-tugtog iyon.

I said remember this moment
In the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds in stands went wild

We were the kings and the queens
And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew
Our lives would never be the same

Long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

We are the kings and the queens
You traded your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town

Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live that look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around
Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break our fall

Will you take a moment,
Promise me this
That you'll stand by me forever
But if God forbid fate should step in

And force us into a goodbye
If you have children some day
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name

Tell them how the crowds went wild
Tell them how I hope they shine

Long live the walls we crashed through
I had the time of my life, with you

Singing, long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
And long, long live that look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

I hope we'll see each other in the right time, Dobi.