Duskwood in the midst of it all.

Devastation 2

It's been one week I barely left my room I can't eat I can't sleep I don't want to speak to anyone I don't want to do anything I just want to lay here Jessy checks up on me so does Thomas and Cleo even Dan but no messages from Lilly no messages from him either I guess he really did what I asked him to do left me I can't help but wondering if is he in the same amount of pain as I am ?  is he feeling the same way that I am feeling ? what if he's doing fine ? what if he doesn't feel the same way ? all I do is hold on to his shirt and look at my phone I know he won't text but I can't help but hope Lisa and Shannon they came up to check up on me  but I wasn't good company they tried to get me to talk but I couldn't I didn't want to

Mom : mc sweetheart are you asleep

MC : no

Mom : sweetheart you've been home for one week and I've seen you eat just once that was because I forced you to have you been sleeping ?

MC : I don't want to talk about it Mom

Mom :; how many hours sleep had  you had in total

MC :;total of 5 hours for the entire week why

Mom :;because that is how you look you've not been sleeping you've not been eating you're pulling away from us your dad and I are starting to get worried  we're afraid what happened to you his traumatized you do you want to speak to a doctor

MC :  I don't need the doctor I know what's wrong with me

Mom :  tell me what's wrong with you , you know you can talk to us

Mc : it's nothing I'll be fine

after she left I just laid I didn't even go outside that was how I felt I just wanted him back with me  it's been two weeks now and still no messages Lilly still hasn't texted me Jessy and the others they check up on me but he doesn't the shirt I had no longer had his  smell I think I'm going to leave go away to the family Island I'll take Mac with me that way I won't be alone I need to try to live again I need to face reality he's not coming back I I looked at my phone just wishing he would text once but it wouldn't happen I started crying all over again this was it  the end all I could do was hope he was okay the doctor cleared me I was okay I could go back to  doing the things that I wanted to do I walked outside headed for the patio

MC : mom Dad I'm going to go away to the island I'll take Mac with me

Mom :;are you sure do you want us to come with you

Mc :; no I'll be fine as long as Mac is with me you don't have to worry I just need to get back into life

Dad:  are you sure sweetheart you spent two weeks locked up in your room all alone you barely ate you barely sleepy you haven't even spoken to us and you want to run off and be by yourself

Mc : I won't be by myself Mac will be with me and besides there's a lot to do on the island and nobody knows where it is so you don't have to be worried

dad :;okay then if that's what you want when are you leaving

MC :; I haven't decided yet i need to  go do some shopping and then I'll probably leave tomorrow evening.

Dad : Okay then I'll call the pilot and tell him to ready to jet.

Mc : thanks Dad

I just left them having lunch I still wasn't hungry I still wasn't up to eating but at least I could talk to people it was the least I could do to get them to stop worrying I decided to take a walk around the grounds and I saw Mac I waved him 

mac : well it's good to see you back on your feet

MC :  yeah I know how are you Mac how's your daughter how's your wife