The Alpha and Me

37. I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH A BEAST!!!

Alpha Manik's POV

I kept staring at the empty corridor Nandini rushed through. Her words echoed in my ears. I have managed to sneak within her barricades and touch what she's protected from the outer world.

It took time but eventually she fell for my efforts. She enjoys every kiss we share and participates equally. I never felt like she was ever getting uncomfortable but now I wonder what made her say all that to me?

Does she really think I would use her as a toy and throw her?

'I can't believe she's got so much going in her head?'

My wolf remarked surprisingly and I found my heart soaring in speed.

My neck and chest burnt. Everywhere she touched was burning. I wished for her hands to be back on my skin. Though it is difficult to get her back to act once she's escaped from me.

This happens frequently after we have made a little bit of love. Something strikes her and she runs away from me. Once she's gone, it is hard to get back to her for she won't let me around her or reply to my calls or pleads. I have tried to chase her and get inside her bedroom so we could talk, but she keeps the doors lock from past few days.

"But I want to know why would she say that? Disposable toy and all?" I gritted my teeth as my wolf's disappointment built up within my chest.

All that I have ever felt towards her is strong attraction. It was not love, I agree, but as I got to know more about her and how she's survived as an individual, I couldn't stop myself from falling for her.

I love her. It sounds a bit rushed and unbelievable but it is the truth. I have fallen for her.

I may have started off with lust, I love her now. All these days of chasing her, all these stolen kisses and scorching cuddling we shared, it only makes me want her more and more.

'You must talk to her, Manik. It is important.' My wolf said.

In other cases, our wolves would stop us from falling for other women. They are highly possessive for their destined mate. My wolf is slightly different with unique thoughts. He doesn't believe in destined mate and all the stuff that claims to make a wolf stronger when mated with his assigned mate.

For my wolf, true love with a genuine person who makes us strong with her presence is more important.

And Nandini makes us feel that way. When she first wrapped her hands around my neck and responded to my forced kiss, we felt that. When she let me hold her in her bed and sleep beside her, I felt strong. When she pulled my hair for the time I was trying to sneak under her clothes, I felt connected to her.

I never thought about my destined mate ever since I noticed Nandini. She is somewhere I don't know, and I don't want to know. With evolution and AI influencing the world, it has become easier for us to reject our destined mates and chose our own, whom we can stay happy with.

That's what is happening nowadays. When mates collide with each other, they reject them for their lovers. I would have done the same if Nandini and I were dating and my mate arrived out of the blue. But no, Nandini wants to think of the most irrational consequences possible and make everything complicated.

'Humans are complicated.' My wolf sighed.

I couldn't agree more. Come to think of it, Nandini is even more complicated than any other human I have met in my life.

She likes me... Probably loves me. But she would not accept it and attempt to distance herself.

"I am not letting you go so easily." I muttered as I hurried towards her room.