Beautiful Pain (An Andy Biersack Love Story) {1} [Completed]

Chapter 27: Apologies

Chapter 27: Apologies

Brielle's POV

"He's a fucking asshole." I said, tears streaming down my face as I pushed into Sienna's apartment.

"What happened?" She asked in a soothing voice, closing the front door. I sat on the couch and threw my head into my hands.

"He just wouldn't fucking listen and he didn't fucking care about what I had to say and, oh my god! This fight is so fucking stupid! Did I just fuck up the best thing that ever happened to me?" I cried, looking up at Sienna.

"Okay, calm down, calm down." Sienna said, sitting next to me and rubbing my back. "Deep breaths, your spiraling. Tell me what happened calmly and clearly."

"I had my appointment today. Andy made me tell him where I was going and he insisted on going with me. When we got there, he got mad at me that I didn't tell him I took a test last week. We then started arguing about this potentially non-existent child. He was hopeful that I would be pregnant and I've been sick to my stomach with worry about this. He wouldn't listen that I'm just not ready to have a baby yet. He then got mad that I told you before him. It-it was almost like he was jealous of you. It was fucking crazy. I asked for a moment alone and he told me that it was his house and he could be wherever he wanted, so I left!"

"Oh, Bri." Sienna sighed, still rubbing my back.

"Is this it?" I asked quietly, afraid of the answer.

"Brielle, it's one fight. Couples right. Your relationship is strong, I don't think it's going to end over this."

"But-but what about his sudden problem with our friendship?"

"You're going to talk to him about it when you are both calm. If I have to take a step aside, then I take a step aside."

"Sienna, no-"

"Brielle, he's your boyfriend. Maybe one day, he'll be your husband and father of your children. I'm okay with him being more important than me. I'm okay if I'm the second one to be told things."

"I don't want to do that." I said, shaking my head. "You're my best friend Si, I-I tell you everything."

"I know, but things change. It's okay, Brielle."

"I don't like change." I said, shaking my head.

"It's a good change, Brielle. We're growing up." She smiled with tears welling up in her eyes. "I'm always going to be here for you. If Andy needs to take my spot, then so be it. I'll be here, no matter what."

"Thank you, Sienna." I said, hugging her.

"Of course. One day, Andy will learn how to snap you out of your spiral." She giggled, hugging me back. I pulled back as my phone rang. I looked and saw it was my doctor's office. I bit my lip as I answered the call.

***

"Andy!" I called nervously as I walked into the house.

"In here!" He called from the living room. I slowly walked through the house and into the living room. I sat down on the chair and he paused the TV, looking at me. His face was red and puffy and he had tear streaks down his cheeks. 

"I'm not pregnant." I said quietly.

"Okay." He said. "I guess Sienna got to find that out before I did."

"I was at her house, Andy. Was I supposed to just run out of there when I got the call? Or not answer? What is your sudden problem with Sienna?"

"I don't feel important." He said, his voice cracking. "When something happens, I'm not the first person on your mind to tell. I'm always going to be second, and it hurts."

"Andy, I didn't know you felt this way. How long have you felt like this?"

"I don't know." He said, shaking his head. "It was a sudden realization that hit me one day and it's been hanging over me like a dark cloud. I don't like feeling this way. It makes me feel like I'm 13. I feel like I'm acting like I didn't get picked first for kickball. It-it makes me feel stupid to admit these feelings."

"Andy, it's okay to have these feelings. You need to understand that I've been telling Sienna everything since we were kids. It's a hard habit to break. I'm going to try harder to tell you things first. I will try hard as long as it's okay if, like today, I get news when I'm with her, that I tell her first."

"I can handle that." He said, nodding. "If you have something else like this happen, like you think your pregnant, please tell me immediately. Don't wallow in anxiety for a week. Let me take some of the burden for you."

"Andy, if you're hoping for a baby, I don't want to get your hopes up and then have you be let down." I said, standing up and moving to sit next to him on the couch. I grabbed his hands and looked into his eyes.

"I'm a grown man Brielle. I can handle it. I want to be there for you literally every step of the way. I want to be there for the test, the ultrasound, the anxiety and the worry, everything."

"I'm not ready for kids." I said, shaking my head.

"That's okay." He said. "What are your thoughts on a time frame on getting engaged. I mean, you told me the order you wanted. You know I love you."

"Whenever you're ready."

"Oh, don't say that. I'll get on one knee right now." He laughed.

"Within the year would be fine." I said with a smile.

"I love you Brielle, I'm sorry for overreacting and creating this stupid fight." He said, shaking his head.

"I wasn't much better. I'm sorry." I said. He leaned in and kissed my lips. I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around him.

**************************************************************************

Please leave a comment and let me know what you thought!