Beautiful Pain (An Andy Biersack Love Story) {1} [Completed]

Chapter 63: When I Let Go of a Heartache

Chapter 63: When I Let Go of a Heartache

Brielle's POV

*One Month Later*

We've been on tour for a month and, while I absolutely love being on tour with Andy, I am currently the worst touring mate. I go to every other show because I spend the day after the show recovering from the night before. I am so tired and have been nauseous more often.

I was sitting in the lounge with the band, attempting to be social, when I felt like I was going to throw up. I jumped up and raced to the bathroom, spilling the contents of my stomach into a plastic bag. Andy ran after me and held my hair back as I sat on my knees in the bathroom, throwing up. I finished and sat down, throwing my head back and groaning.

"Are you okay?" Andy asked.

"No." I said, shaking my head. Andy grabbed the bag from me and tied it up, setting it to the side to take it to an outside trash can later. "Being sick without a toilet to throw up in is miserable." I said.

"I've thrown up on many tours, I get it." He laughed, stroking my hair as he sat next to me.

"I shouldn't have come Andy, I'm sorry."

"What do you mean?"

"I should've stayed home. I'm just a burden."

"Brielle, no! Don't say that! I'm so happy you're here, I don't care if you sleep through every show. I'm sorry you have to be stuck on this bus while you're so sick."

"It's okay." I said quietly. "I need to brush my teeth." I said, standing up and grabbing my tooth brush. Andy went back out to the lounge while I cleaned my mouth and then joined him.

"Are you okay, Brielle?" Jake asked.

"I'm fine, just a little sick. I'm not contagious, I promise." I said. I caught a glance at Jinxx and he was looking at me with a suspicious look. I quickly looked down at my lap and took a deep breath.

Later that night, I stepped out of Andy's dressing room and was ambushed by Jinxx.

"Oh, hi." I said.

"Hi." He said nervously.

"What's up?" I asked, chewing on some crackers to help my nausea.

"Are you pregnant?" He asked quietly.

"W-What do you mean?" I asked, quickly looking to see if anyone else was around.

"Brielle, you forget that I have a kid. I know what pregnancy symptoms look like. Are you?" He asked again.

"We're not telling anyone yet. I-It's too early. I'm only two months." I said, shaking my head.

"Your secret is safe with me, I was just concerned about you." He smiled, placing his hand on my shoulder. "I'm really happy for you and Andy."

"Thank you Jinxx." I said.

"What's going on our here?" Andy asked, stepping out of his dressing room with half of his makeup on.

"Jinxx solved the puzzle." I chuckled.

"Sorry." Jinxx said, holding his hands up.

"So, he knows?" Andy asked, causing both Jinxx and I to nod. "Oh thank god." Andy said, letting out a sigh of relief. "This secret has been killing me." He laughed.

"I know how that feels." He said with a smile. "Well, like I told Brielle, I'm happy for you guys."

"Thanks, man." Andy smiled, giving him a hug. "Anyway, I need to finish getting ready." He said, going back into the room. I followed him and sat on the couch.

"So, we arrive in Cincinnati tomorrow." Andy said.

"That we do." I said, nodding.

"Are we sure we can't tell our parents yet?"

"No, Andy. I don't want to have to tell them if something happens." I said, shaking my head.

"Nothing is going to happen!"

"You don't know that!" I exclaimed, tears in my eyes. "My anxiety is at an all time high, I am in constant fear!"

"Brielle." He sighed, coming over and sitting next to me. "I'm sorry." He said.

"It's fine, I'm just scared."

"It's okay to be scared." He said, holding me. "I just feel like I'm lying to my parents. I mean, I tell them everything. I am so excited about this baby, I just want to shout it from the rooftops. I want to tell anyone and everyone."

"I know." I said. "We'll tell them the moment we're in the clear, I promise."

"Okay." He said, holding me tight. He kissed me and then returned to doing his makeup for the show.

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