Not A Bad Thing (Book One)

Part 2 - Chapter 29

29 - Out

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It's like I'm dreaming the same nightmare over and over again. Every time that I close my eyes, the same scene keeps on replaying on my mind. I just saw my boyfriend kissing another girl in front of me and it is killing me big time.

 Noong mga oras na iyon, hinihiling ko na sana hindi na lang ako pumunta. Sana hindi ko na lang nakita. Sana wala na lang akong alam. Mas masakit pala na alam mong may nangyayaring ganun pero wala kang magawa. That time, all I did was cry my heart out. Hindi ko nga alam kung paano ako nakauwi habang halos wala na akong makita at hindi na makahinga kakaiyak ko. I was a wreck. No, I'm still a wreck. I'm broken.

"You okay?" Kuya Kris asked me. We are currently eating breakfast together, Kuya Tao left early for work. I simply nodded at him. He looked at me suspiciously, I tried to look down on my food and ignore his stare. It's still a good thing that my other brother is not here, I'm sure he will not stop until I confess what's going on. 

My whole body is shaking while holding my phone. I'm in the company's restroom. I went inside a cubicle, just sitting while staring at my phone. I checked Jin's private message last night. Tinitigan ko iyon at ngayon ko lang napansin na hindi pala siya talaga nakatitig sa kawalan. He is actually staring at someone standing  just a few steps in front of him. He is shamelessly staring at Blake. Kung nakatunaw lang ang titig, nalusaw na ang babaeng iyon. How lucky, ako nga hindi man lang maisipang kamustahin. Napatawa ako ng pagak.

I was not able to notice it last night because I'm too preoccupied. Masyado ko siyang na miss na nasa kanya na lang ang atensyon ko samantalang iba naman pala nag pinagbibigyan niya ng panahon. How pathetic. 

Huminga ako ng malalim. My hands are still shaking, they're cold as ice but I still tried composing a message for him. We have to talk. Hi. When are you free? Let's talk. I sent the message. Please. Then sent another after.  I stood up and walked outside. 

Nakasalubong ko pa ang ilang empleyado na nagkwekwentuhan habang naglalakad papasok ng restroom. I heard them talking about the CEO's son. So, he is here. I grabbed my phone from my pocket and tried calling him. It's now ringing but he is still not answering. Hubby please.

Four hours passed but I still don't have any reply from him. Is it really hard to say yes or no? Is it too much to ask for a little time? I feel like crying again. Ayoko na muna. Nakakapagod umiyak. Ang sakit  na wala ang mga kamay niya para pawiin iyon. Pinunasan ko ang munting luha na nagbabadyang bumagsak mula sa mga mata ko. Not now Sulli. 

"Hello. Good afternoon. Can I talk to Mr. Oh please?" Kaharap ko ngayon ang sekretarya ni hubby. I'm too desperate that I even went here to see him. She looked at me before answering. "I'm sorry miss. Do you have an appointment with him?" Natigilan ako. Oo nga pala, nakalimutan ko. He is not my  boyfriend here. He is one of my bosses. 

"Ah, ano kasi... Wala po. Hmmm... Is he busy? Pwede po ba siyang makausap?" She furrowed her eyebrows at me like I'm an insane girl asking for an impossible thing. "Ano po..ah-pwe-pwede kayang magpa appointment ngayon?"