Not A Bad Thing (Book One)

Special Chapter II

I wiped the sweat falling from my forehead. Napakagat labi ako dahil sa frustration na nararamdaman ko. Ang hirap namang magluto. Sunny side up egg na nga lang hindi ko pa maluto ng maayos. I covered my face with both hands and sighed. You can do it Sulli, come on. Ang simple lang niyan eh.

"Something wrong?" Halos mapatalon ako nang maramdaman ko ang mga braso ni hubby na pumalupot sa aking bewang. He just took a shower and he smells a lot like heaven.

He nuzzled my neck and gave me a quick kiss there. I pouted my lips. "Hindi ko talaga magawa. Tignan mo oh!" Tinuro ko ang plato sa may gilid na may lamang mga itlog na kung hindi sunog ay nadurog naman. Epic fail. What a housewife Sulli.

"That's okay baby. Let's eat. Nagugutom na 'ko."

"Pero... pero hindi mo naman iyan makakain ng maayos." Naiiyak kong sabi. I feel bad that I can't even make a decent meal for my husband. I should be the one doing this for him not the other way around. I shouldn't be a spoiled girl that can't do anything anymore. I'm married and I have to be responsible as a wife. Hindi pwedeng umasa na langs a mga taong handang gawin ang kahit anong bagay para sa akin.

"Hey, hey. Are you crying?" He turned me around to face him and cupped my face. "Don't feel bad. It looks nice I will love it for sure." Too much of your sugar coating hubby. Alam ko naman hindi.

Tumalikod ako sa kanya at inabot ang plato na may lamang itlog. Naglakad ako papalapit sa basurahan at itinapon iyon. "Anong ginagawa mo?" Sumunod si hubby at nakanuot noong nagtatanong sa akin.

"Sorry. Wala ka nang matinong nakain. Sorry talaga. Wala eh. Walang kwenta ang napangasawa mo." I was not able to stop my tears anymore. I tilted my head on the other side to hide it but he stepped forward and made me face him. He wiped my tears.

"What the fuck are you saying huh? Don't ever say that again. You don't have to throw it away, I won't die eating that but I'll die seeing you down so just fucking stop it." I just looked at him.

"Don't do that again." His face is so serious that I can't help but just nod. "I'm sorry hubby."

"Don't say sorry. Come on, let's make breakfast together."

After we washed the dishes together, I went to the bathroom to take another another pregnancy test. I am silently praying for the test to be positive. Feeling ko kasi baka naglilihi na ako. Nung mga nakaraang araw nanunuod ako ng isang tv show na may mga bata at para akong naadik dahil hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko na hindi isa isahin ang episode na nakita ko sa internet.

The Song triplets are my my favorites. They are freaking adorable and cute and awesome and I wanna squeeze them especially Minguk. I wanna have a triplets too. I wanna have a happy family with my hubby.

My hands are shaking while waiting for the result. I closed my eyes for a while but I was dumbfounded when I saw another negative sign from it. Napahawak ako sa pader at tumingala. Why is it negative again? I've tried so many times but it's never positive. Why? Why? Why?