Why do I feel this way?

Chapter 69: Mind Games

Vivian shoots up immediately, shaking Siobhan awake. "Bon!" Her voice startled the blonde and she sat up quickly. "Geez, Viv. You scared me... what's wrong?" The brunette's eyes shift to Siobhan's chest, "Shit, Bon... You're bleeding!" The blonde looks down and confusion swarms her mind. Vivian places her finger under her chin lifting her eyes back to her own. "Baby, I need you to stay calm." Siobhan furrows her eyebrows as she focuses her attention on Vivian's voice. "Chris was in the house last night."

Damn you, Chris. Why can't you just leave us alone? He knows hurting and threatening those I love is more painful than anything he could do to me. I wish he didn't know me so well... It's not fair they have to endure this because of me.

She pauses studying Siobhan's face then shows her the flower. "Bon, he would get me these all the time. What they symbolize is morbid, but they were my favorite when I was with him." She reaches out touching the cut on Siobhan's chest, "Looks like he wanted me to know just how close he can get. Mind games and mental torture is his favorite— and he is good at it." Vivian stands from the bed walking around to Siobhan's side. "I need to take a look at that cut. Come on, baby."

Vivian looks terrified. She is trying to hide it, but I can see it in her eyes. I can't imagine what she went through with Chris. The scars I counted last night were left by him and now there will be one on me to torture her... It pisses me off that he is using me to hurt her.

The two walk into the bathroom as Siobhan sits on the edge of the tub while Vivian retrieves everything she needs from the cabinet. Silence persists as Vivian cleans Siobhan's wound. Tears peek through the brunette's eyes, her gentle hands tending to the blonde's cut. The younger woman noticed the tears before she leaned in to kiss her. As she pulls back, she places her hand on Vivian's cheek as she softly glides her thumb across her velvet skin. "Baby, I'm okay. This is not your fault... I'm okay."

Chris wants me to know how easy he can get to me— to us. Now he knows about Siobhan. He cut her on the chest with his knife. I have hundreds of scars from cuts just like this one. She says it's not my fault, but if she wasn't with me it wouldn't have happened. Do I stay and fight or do I run again?

After Vivian finished bandaging Siobhan's chest, they headed down stairs being lured by the aroma of bacon and pancakes. "Well good morning sleepy he..." Mia's gaze landed on Siobhan's bandage and she let out a single chuckle, "Damn, Viv! I'm glad Char and I were already asleep before you two did... that." The redhead gestures suggestively at Siobhan.

Charlotte noticed Vivian flinch. "Viv? What's wrong?" The brunette's serious expression catches their attention, "It's definitely not what you think it is... Chris broke in last night. He left a message for us." Mia drops the spatula, turning quickly, "What?!" Charlotte echoed, "Yeah... What?!" Vivian closed her eyes and sighed, "He put a black dahlia behind my ear and he slit Siobhan's chest." The brunette's eyes widened, "There wasn't anything odd in the guest room when you woke up, right?!" Char rushed over taking Vivian's hand in hers, "No, nothing happened to us... I'm so sorry he is doing this to you."

Vivian steps out of the kitchen to call her dad. The man answers after the first ring. "Sweet pea, what's going on? You usually call your momma's phone." Vivian hesitates before her soft voice breaks, "Daddy... Chris..." She instantly hears the anger in his voice, "What did that son of a bitch do?" Vivian tells him what happened and his blood begins to boil. "I'm gonna kill that fucker! I want you two to come up to the hospital. They have security right outside the room now."

Athena sits quietly only hearing Beckett's side of the conversation. The feeling in her chest was like someone squeezing her heart tightly. As her husband hung up the phone, Athena tried to sit patiently and wait for Beckett to talk. The man stands and begins pacing the floor, "I hate that man! I should have killed him when I had the chance. I won't make that mistake again." His wife stands and walks over to kiss Jamie's forehead as he sleeps. "Beck... let's walk outside."

Athena takes Beckett's hand, "Talk to me... what's going on?" He fills her in on the happenings the previous night at Vivian's. "You only kill him if it's self defense... We can't have you going to prison" The two laughed before the mood quickly shifted as Beckett leans down to kiss his wife. Pulling away his voice trembles slightly, "Our baby deserves happiness. Why is this happening to her? I feel helpless..."