Why do I feel this way?

Chapter 74: FaceTime

Jamie was extremely hyper all morning excited to go to nursery. Siobhan and Vivian were woken up by him running into their room and jumping up on the bed. "Momma, Bonnie, get up! I get to go to nursery today!" Vivian rolled over facing Jamie, a tired smile peeking through, "Good morning, son..." her voice raspy and soft. Siobhan grunted softly, pulling the covers over her head. Vivian couldn't help but laugh at Siobhan's reaction. "Jamie, go ahead and pull your clothes out and get dressed. I'll be there to help you in a minute."

As he darted out of the room, Vivian pulled the covers off Siobhan's face slowly. "Bon Bon, you alright?" The blonde softly smiled at Vivian leaning closer to kiss her lips. She pulled away, with her lips ghosting Vivian's before pressing her lips against hers again. "I'm good, baby. That was just a lot of energy for this early in the morning." The brunette found that entertaining and she whispered as she raised an eyebrow, "Hum... I remember a certain blonde that woke me excessively early one morning. There was a lot of energy that morning too... If I remember correctly, you had me wide awake in no time... and screaming your name soon after..."

Siobhan blushed and hid her face in the pillow. Vivian placed her lips close to Siobhan's ear as she whispered in a husky tone, "I'm waiting for the day you consent for me to wake you up overflowing with pleasure." She kissed her cheek and quickly hopped out of bed to go help Jamie. Siobhan called out, "Damn, Viv. You have my full consent—tomorrow. No excuses."

Jamie was almost fully dressed when Vivian walked into his room. "Great choice Jamie. I really like that outfit. You're so handsome!" He smiles big at his mom, but falters slightly, "Mommy, do you think they will like my haircut?" He asked as he rubbed his hand across his bald head. Vivian knelt down beside him placing her arm around him bringing him in close. "Jamie, I think everyone will think you look cool! And you love it, right?" He nodded quickly, "Yeah... I look like Papa!"

Jamie bounced down the stairs running towards the aroma of pancakes that Siobhan was cooking. "Can I have strawberries with my pancakes?" The blonde spun around with a plate of pancakes with strawberries. Jamie's eyes widened as he gasped, "Bonnie! How'd you know?" Siobhan giggled softly at his reaction as she walked the plate over to the table and sat it in front of Jamie. She loved seeing the pure excitement on his face and was proud of him eating. He was able to get half a pancake and two strawberries down before he left the table.

Vivian walked in the kitchen dressed in her scrubs and jean jacket, another one of Siobhan's favorites on her brunette. Her eyes scanned the table seeing Jamie's plate. Even though her chest tightened in heartache, she praised him, "Jamie, you ate so good! I'm proud of you!" The young boy had such a big appetite before he got sick and started chemo. Vivian was hopeful that his appetite would continue to get better.

Siobhan gave Vivian a kiss goodbye as she headed out the door with Jamie. When she pulled away and began walking away, Vivian quickly pulled her back in for another kiss. They rested their foreheads against the other's as Vivian spoke softly, "I love you, future Siobhan Yvette Serpent-Clark." The blonde smiled as she echoed, "I love you Vivian Lee Rhea Clark." The two had become obsessed with full naming each other and Vivian couldn't get enough of adding Clark to Siobhan's. Butterflies erupted in their stomach every single time.

Siobhan pulled into the nursery car park with Jamie. She took a deep breath before exiting the car and helping Jamie out of the car. Jamie takes Siobhan's hand as they start walking towards the entry. They walked straight to the preschool room and did handover with Sorscha. "Hi, Jamie. How are ya?" He looks up smiling, "I'm doing good. Do you like my new haircut?!" His shoulders stiffened slightly waiting for her response. "Oh, Jamie. Your haircut is awesome! I love it!" He immediately stands proud as his smile brightens even more and takes off to the book corner.

Sorscha looks at Siobhan as her mouth opens, but closes just as quickly, no words coming out. "Sorscha, did you need something?" The redhead's eyes dropped to the floor, "I'm not supposed to ask, but I can't help it. How are you and Viv holding up?" The blonde smiles, "It's okay Sorscha. I appreciate you thinking about us." She pauses for a moment taking a deep breath, "We are doing okay— managing. The pain of watching your son be sick like this is unexplainable." Sorscha gives a sympathetic look as she places her hand on Siobhan's shoulder, "We are ALL here for you two."

The blonde leaves and heads to the office. Autumn and Marjorie raise their heads as she walks in quietly. "Hello my love. You alright?" Siobhan settles at her desk sighing as her body relaxes into the chair. "I'm alright, Majorie. You?" Marjorie smiles appreciating the blonde's interest in conversation. They all sat in silence, the only sounds were the shuffling of papers and clicking of the keyboards.

The day was passing rapidly and it was time for Siobhan's lunch. Her first thought was Jamie so she walked down to the preschool room just to lay eyes on him. He was still buzzing around the room playing with his friends. Sorscha watched Siobhan's expression relax and a reflective smile pulled at her lips.

Siobhan has changed so much... Vivian has completely stolen her heart— it's obvious, but so has Jamie! I can see she loves him like I love Quinn... She has found happiness and we all gained her as a friend. Crazy how quickly things can change...

Siobhan walks out to her car to go pick up some lunch and notices a man standing on the sidewalk at the intersection near the nursery. His face seemed familiar, but she brushed it off. She bought her lunch and drove back to the nursery to eat in her car. Vivian had just messaged her letting her know she was about to have a quick lunch break. As Siobhan shifted her vehicle into park, her phone rang. A huge smile beamed as she answered the FaceTime call. "Hi sunshine! I miss you!" Vivian chuckles at Siobhan's reaction, responding, "Baby it's barely been 4 hours, but honestly I have missed you too."

As their call came to an end and they were saying their goodbyes, Siobhan looked out her window. The barrel of a gun was aligned with her face as her breath caught in her chest. Before she taps the button to hang up, she whispers, "No matter what happens, remember I love you." Vivian's heart stops as anxiety surges through her knowing that something was wrong. "I love you, Bon— always..."