Why do I feel this way?

Chapter 27: My New Home

After picking up Jamie from nursery, Vivian picked up a take away and went home. Jamie told his mom all about the fun he had with his grandmother while they ate. Once they finished, the toddler let out a big yawn. "Let's get you tucked in for the night, huh?" Jamie got up heading towards the stairs to get to his bedroom.

As Vivian finished reading a book to Jamie, he asked "Is teacher Bon-Bon better? I miss seeing her at the nursery and I think you missed her too mommy." At this Vivian let out a soft laugh, "She is doing better. Actually she will be coming to stay her for a while once she gets out of the hospital." Jamie's eyes shot wide open, "really? I can't wait to show her my room and my toys and..." Vivian's heart fills with warmth hearing the concern and excitement coming from her sweet boy. She gave him a kiss on the forehead "I love you, goodnight." He wiggled himself deeper into his cover "I love you mommy, night."

Vivian shut the door quietly and went to her bedroom. She quickly changed into her pajamas and laid down in her comfy bed. The realization of how tired she was hit. As she began to doze off, she thought of Siobhan. Warmth and comfort engulfed her as she closed her eyes.

Siobhan was finally being discharged from the hospital. Vivian had taken Jamie to her mom's to stay for the next few days so she could get Siobhan settled. While driving back to the hospital, Vivian couldn't contain her excitement. Siobhan was coming home, with her. Her thoughts wandered to movie nights cuddled up on the sofa with her beautiful blonde. Romantic dinner dates at home and real alone time with no interruptions. As she stopped for a traffic light, she flashed back to a few days ago when Siobhan showed her bold side. Vivian almost forgot she was driving and was jolted from her thoughts by a car horn.

Arriving at the hospital, she went straight to Siobhan's room. Renee was in the room giving her the discharge papers. When Siobhan noticed Vivian at the door, her face lit up as a huge smile spread across her face. "Hiya Bon-Bon, I see you have your things packed. I'll carry those while Renee takes you down in a wheelchair." Siobhan rolls her eyes, "a wheelchair? I
can walk just fine..." While grabbing the bags, Vivian chuckles, "Hospital policy baby. You don't have a choice."

I hate that I have to be rolled out in a wheelchair, but I finally get to go home. My new home... with Viv. When she calls me baby, my stomach almost turns flips. I'm not sure I'm ready to really say this out loud, but I'm so in love with this woman. I want her to be my forever.

A short elevator ride later they are heading out the doors to the car. Vivian helped Siobhan into the car getting her buckled, stealing a quick kiss, before putting the bags in the back and getting in herself. "Ready to go home, Bon?" Siobhan's cheeks blush as she takes Viv's hand in hers, "I'm more than ready!" For the entire drive home, their hands are interlinked. At every traffic light, Vivian brings Siobhan's hand up to her lips kissing it. She just can't get enough— it's intoxicating.

Pulling into the drive, Vivian has a sinking feeling in her stomach. Brushing it off she helps Siobhan into her house. Vivian walks back out to the car getting Siobhan's bags. She notices a car she hasn't seen before in the neighborhood, but thinks it's just someone visiting one of her neighbors.

I've never seen that car around. It looks like a car I saw in the hospital car park. Well, I guess they had someone to visit at the hospital as well...

Vivian tells Siobhan to go ahead and rest on the sofa while she takes her bags upstairs to put her things away. "While I'm putting your things away, you can pick a movie for us to watch together." Vivian plops the bags on the bed and begins unloading them. She hears a knock at the door and asks Siobhan to answer it.

Siobhan opens the door and her blood runs cold. Roger stood in front of her pointing a gun straight at her chest. "Lucky me, I was expecting to have to fight your little girlfriend first before I killed you. This is better though..." He walks towards her causing the blonde to step backwards into the living room. "Who is it baby?" Siobhan didn't even have time to respond before Roger shot her in the chest.

Siobhan's body flung back as her breath caught in her chest. Feeling as if she was falling in slow motion the sound of the gunshot echoed in her mind. She landed hard on the floor, but she didn't even feel pain. Shocked, Siobhan really didn't feel anything.

Is this really happening? It can't be... I guess I was never meant to really see what love is...

"I don't want you to die too quickly. You need to watch precious Vivian fall apart and say your last words. If I can't have you, no one can... you should have known that Siobhan."

Bastard... Vivian doesn't deserve this...

Vivian hears a loud bang. Freezing a moment hoping to hear Siobhan call out to her to explain the noise. She knows what it is, but is trying to deny it as she runs downstairs to the living room. The staircase seems to get longer as she runs down them, seeming to never end.

This can't be happening.... Please let her be okay...

Finally she makes it to the bottom. Her eyes land on Siobhan laying on the floor— blood soaking the carpet beneath her. Tears immediately well up in her eyes as she screams out her name. She didn't notice Roger sitting on the chair watching.

"Siobhan, baby... it's— you're going to be okay. I have to call... ambulance." Roger lets out an evil chuckle, "you will do no such thing, Vivian." She slowly turns her head facing Roger. She charges towards him and tackles him knocking him off the chair. As he gets back up to his feet, he points the gun at Vivian. "I wasn't planning on killing you, but if I have to I will."

Jamie's face flashes before her and she turns and kneels down by Siobhan. Placing her hand on the wound she holds pressure hoping to get the bleeding to stop. Between her deep sobs she talks to her love, "Don't give up baby...I'm here... I've got you..." Siobhan looks her in the eyes as she puts her hand on Vivian's thigh next to her, "Viv... I love you... you don't deserve this... please... don't lose yourself... because of me. Don't stop living... you have to promise me."

I never wanted to ruin her life like this... I need her to promise she will keep living her life... find love that she deserves... be happy... please Viv hear me.

Vivian can't believe what she is hearing. "Siobhan keep fighting... you have to be okay... I need you... I want my forever with you!" Tears flow out of Siobhan's eyes. Her heart is breaking seeing the pain this is putting her through. Taking in her last breath... "I'm so sorry... I love you, Viv."

No, no, no... this isn't happening... this can't be real... her chest isn't rising... baby... no, please... stay with me! Please let this be a nightmare!

Vivian let out a blood curdling scream as she realized Siobhan was no longer breathing. "Bon, no, baby... please... no" She lifted Siobhan's head off the floor placing it in her lap as she ran her fingers through her hair. "Come on... please wake up... I need you." Barely able to breathe as her heart crumbled into pieces. She held her precious love in her arms and gave her one last kiss before numbness flows through her.

"That was even better than I expected. Watching you fall apart—it's exactly what she deserved for thinking she could escape me. I will be taking off now... Just remember... I always get what I want... have a nice life, Vivian."

Vivian feels a hollow ache spread through her chest, her breath coming in short gasps. A weightlessness overtaking her and darkness seems to be creeping closer.

Please let this be a nightmare! I can't lose her... she is the love of my life... my soulmate...