Why do I feel this way?

Chapter 55: Special

Siobhan and Vivian were both off work today, but decided to take Jamie into nursery anyway so they could get the checklist done for his birthday party. The two women were sitting on the couch. Vivian sat with her legs tucked to the side, her feet resting against the couch's back. She was scrolling through her phone trying to decide where they were going to order the cake.

Siobhan was stretched out using Vivian's legs as a pillow. She was looking for a bouncy house rental place that had both the bouncy house and the blowup obstacle course. Every few minutes they would lean closer to the other for a kiss. They couldn't help it, but they intentionally kept them short and sweet so they weren't distracted from their important planning today. It was the last day for them to get everything settled before the party Saturday.

Vivian sighed in frustration, "Ugh! I think we should just make Jamie's cake ourselves. We could pull it off Friday night— barely." The blonde looked up at her girlfriend as she chuckled, "Baby, calm down. I think that would be a good idea, but you know the trouble we get into when we are in the kitchen together." The brunette smirked as she smacked Siobhan's arm. "In that case, we may need to ask Reece if he can make it. We are going to need our sleep Friday!"

Siobhan sat up kissing Vivian on the cheek, "Go ahead and text him. I'm going to make some tea. Do you want some?" The younger woman exaggerating her hip swings to tease her partner as she walked to the kitchen. "Bon! We still have a lot of things to check off our list. I can't concentrate with you doing all that. You're so hot!" Vivian punctuated her words with a whistle as Siobhan looked over her shoulder and winked.

This woman knows exactly what she is doing. She knows every button to press to get me flustered and I don't know if I can restrain myself much longer. I love days like this though. Days we get to just relax and spend time together.

She has come such a long way. I'm proud of how she carries herself with confidence now. Her cravings and triggers have become less intense. She comes to me for help instead of trying to deal with it on her own. One day— one day she is going to be my wife...

I just want Jamie's party to be as perfect as he deserves. Seeing Siobhan like this makes it even better.

Vivian turns her attention back to her phone as she sends a text to Reece.

To Reece:
Hiya Reece! Um... do you think you would be able to make the cake for Jamie's birthday party Saturday?

Siobhan returns to the couch with their tea as she scrolls one more time on her phone and lands on the perfect company to rent the bouncy houses. "Yes! This is perfect. Look Viv!" The company was actually promoting a party bundle option. It included a 3 lane mega obstacle course, a jousting inflatable and a bouncy house. "Siobhan Serpent!" The blonde scrunched her face as she prepared herself for the lecture her stubborn girlfriend was about to give her. "What... Vivian Clark?!"

"700 pound?! That is insane!" Siobhan huffs and rolls her eyes, "You said that you were going to let me spoil him. I have the money for it. Let me help make this birthday special for him Viv." The brunette stands as she leans forward and slings her arm to the side. "Yes, I said you could spoil him. Spoiling him is like 200 pound. I can't ask you to spend that on my son."

Siobhan sits forward as she animatedly responds, "But you're not asking me to Viv! I'm volunteering. I WANT to do this for him— and for you. You work so hard to give him the world." The older woman crosses her arms and plops back on the couch before taking a deep breath. "Bon, please don't get mad at me, but..."

Siobhan's breathing all but stops. "Are you doing this to make up for things you think you did wrong? It's so sweet and thoughtful, but I just want to make sure that you are only doing it because you want to do something special for Jamie. Not out of guilt for things you had no control over."

Vivian places her hand on Siobhan's knee for comfort. "Remember at Christmas... you tried to basically buy Jamie the whole toy store. You told me you felt like it was the only way to make it up to him." She can see that the blonde is mulling over her words. She looked down at Vivian's hand and placed hers on top as she fell into deep thought.

After a few moments she looked into Vivian's eyes and whispered, "I truly just want to make it special for him— and you." The blonde's hand raised to Vivian's cheek as she continued. "You two are my world now, Viv. You have helped me let go of all the guilt and shame I was feeling." She kissed her softly on the lips then pulled back slowly, "Baby, you have taught me how to love again. You have taught me to open my heart again."

The two women jolted out of the soft moment when Vivian's phone blared "Barbie Girl". Siobhan tilted her head raising an eyebrow, "Really, Viv?" The brunette just laughs, "it's Reece's favorite... So why not?" The blonde shakes her head as she smiles watching the beautiful woman in front of her. She could just stare at her all day and never get tired of it.

From Reece:
Actually yeah! I would love to make it... Thanks, Viv. What is the theme? Marjorie is a horrible cook, but she can decorate a cake like nobody else. She is amazing!

Siobhan sips her tea while Vivian reads the message to her. Suddenly, Siobhan chokes on her tea. "He better make sure Marjorie doesn't touch that cake other than decorating! We are NOT giving everyone food poisoning. I mean it... not even making the icing!" Vivian's eyes are wide as saucers as she jerks her head back in surprise. "Breathe Bon..."

To Reece:
The theme is dinosaurs. Jamie's favorite is velociraptors and T-Rex. Um... Siobhan had a whole episode over here as I read the message to her. She said to make sure Marjorie doesn't touch the cake other than to decorate. Not even making the icing— something about not poisoning anyone...

From Reece:
Ha! Tell Siobhan not to worry... Marjorie is strictly on decorating duty. She is already jumping around hyperventilating... This means so much to her.

Vivian places her phone down and sits comfortably on the couch. She reaches her arms out to Siobhan who snuggles in closely. As Vivian wraps her arms around the blonde she whispers, "You are incredible... I love you— so much."

I'm so thankful to have Vivian in my life. The way she loves me— I feel special, cherished. Never thought I would have this. Maybe— just maybe one day I'll be her wife...