Desperation.

Chapter 6

I sit down next to Victor and he looks confused. Suddenly I am afraid that he forgot about me. About us.
If you can say "us" at all because we just danced.
But he said that he has never met a girl like me before, didn't he? I know he said that!
Finally he seems to remember me because he starts talking to me. "Hey Diana. How are you? " He says with his thick French accent which makes me smile. "Hey Victor... I'm fine" I reply. "Where are you going?" - "I go shopping with my friends. Rose- you met her on Saturday- and Bella. And what are you gonna do in the city?" I question. "The same." he says and we get off of the bus together.
"Can I get your phone number?" I ask before I realise what I have just said. Victor seems to be surprised but he takes his mobile phone and tells me his number.
I am very happy and when I say goodbye to him he brings his face near to mine... he looks in my eyes... he moves closer and closer and there are just a few inches between our faces... I close my eyes and wait for him to kiss me. When his lips meet mine I cannot believe that I am really doing this.
I have had a few boyfriends before but none of them kissed as good as Victor. There is a firework in my stomach and my heart beats faster and faster.
When we stop kissing he looks a bit shy but I try to show him with my smile that I liked it. And I really did.
"I have to go" he whispers and I wish I could kiss him again but he waves and dissappears behind a corner.

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It takes some seconds until I realise that the song comes from my phone. My new ring tone.
"This is Diana Collins" I say. "Diana where are you?! We're waiting for you!" Oh no! I am too late! "Sorry Rose! I'll be there in 2 minutes." I hang up and run to the meeting point.
"Sorry for being late!" I say exhausted but they say it was okay.
Should I tell them about the kiss? Or about the feelings I had while I was kissing Victor? While he was kissing me.
But I do not even have the chance to because Rose starts speaking. "Let's go to Forever 21. I need some new clothes."
When we get into the shop I find a pair of blue jeans and try them on. They fit very well so I decide to buy them. Rose buys a pink T-Shirt and Bella does not find anything. After we finish paying our clothes I cannot believe my eyes!
Who is that guy over there? Isn't that Louis?
I hold my breath and look at Rose. "Rose" I whisper "That's Louis, isn't it?" - "Who's Louis?" She asks and I am afraid that he heard what she said and I do not want him to see us. "He's Zayn's friend! The guy we met this morning!" I whisper and Bella and Rose look confused. "Why the hell are you whispering, Diana?" Bella asks. It is too late. Louis looks at me and I do not know what to do.
I cannot help but stare at him. And he stares at me. I feel insecure and I do not know what for. What can I do? Should I say hello? No, that is a bad idea! I have seen him for one time and I do not want to meet him again. His glance is a bit scary.
But his eyes are breathtaking. I have to get rid of those thoughts. Why can I not completely forget about him? I have Victor- what do I want more? I am finally able to move so I run out of the store and I stop in front of a church.
Bella and Rose are still behind me. "What the hell was that, Diana?" Bella asks and I have to take a deep breath before I answer "That was Louis. He's the guy who owns the house Rose's boyfriend lives at the moment." It seems to be normal to her. In Bella's opinion Louis is just a random guy. A random guy who owns the house Rose's boyfriend lives in now. As I said. "Let's go back to the mall. I need new trainers!" Bella says and we go to her favourite store.
After she found her shoes I want nothing but go home. I am so confused about my thoughts and I want to call Victor. I want to speak to him and I want to hear his voice with the French accent. "I have to go home now!" Bella says and I say goodbye to her.
Rose and I have to take the same bus.
"Diana? Are you listening?" Rose asks and I look at her. She was probably telling me a story so I say "Sorry?" - "You didn't listen at all, did you?" she sighs. "No, sorry. So what did you say?" - "I asked you why you were too late."
Should I tell her that I met Victor? She always informs me about everything so I tell her about Victor and the kiss.
By the time I finish she is almost screaming: "Oh my god! How does he kiss? I've never kissed a French guy!" she squeezes and I say "He kisses unbelievable. I've never had this feeling before. It was like a firework of feelings! It was... beautiful. The best moment ever."