Desperation.

Chapter 61

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For one moment I think about acting like I did not hear the voice but I decide not to do that so I turn around and look into the eyes I expected to see.

Two light green eyes in a small tanned face surrounded by long black curly hair.

I bite on my lip.

I don't want to talk to the person in front of me.

Not now and not in a million years.

"Nelly is so cute!"

Instead of an answer I keep my mouth shut.

"The weather is beautiful today"

I still do not talk.

"I'm sorry, Diana."

That's the sentence I have been waiting for since Louis' party.

"You aren't." I claim and wait for her to say something.

"I didn't mean to do that."

"There's no way to apologise what you've done to me, Bella."

"I know, but I want to explain why I did that."

"Shut up! I don't want to hear your fucking lies! I don't wanna talk to you, I don't even want to think about you!"

"Please come with me, Diana! Please!"

On one hand I hate Bella and I never want to see her again but on the other hand there a so many memories we share... and she has no one she can talk to because of Leanne's death... I can talk to Rose, Rose can talk to me but Bella does not have friends anymore...

One last question... then I will decide whether I will go with her or not.

"Did you and Victor split up?"

Bella nods and after I called Nelly we follow Bella through the forest.

While we are walking past huge trees and small bushes she starts telling me the truth. Well, I hope it is the truth.

"Okay, Diana... I know you won't forgive me but I wanna tell you the whole story... We had been best friends before this happened. There was nothing we didn't do together. We were a team. All for one and one for all. Nobody has ever been alone. But once gou all got a boyfriend. That was very strange... you know... Rose, Leanne and you got a boyfriend at the same time... And Rose told me that you both met your boyfriends at the disco, well, you and Rose got your boyfriends at the same time because of the disco but then Leanne got Harry... The most popular boy of our school. I didn't have a problem with Harry and Leanne being together, I like them both, Leanne was my best friend and I wasn't in love with Harry so everything was okay... maybe it could have been different if I was but well, nevermind. So I was the only one without a boyfriend. Normally it wouldn't be a problem for me, we went shopping though and we were still best friends. But I wasn't able to do anything against this fear. I knew our friendship didn't depend on your boyfriend, I don't know how it could depend on that but I was afraid that you could forget about me. Leanne and Harry, Rose and Zayn, Diana and Victor. What about me? Bella and...? Bella and nobody. I didn't have a boyfriend so if you had forgotten about me I wouldn't have had anyone to talk to. I didn't want this to happen so I waited for the perfect moment to destroy one of your relationships. I'm so sorry, Diana, you know me, normally I'd never do that but... I don't know what I was thinking when I had this idea... One day someone told me about a party at Louis' and Zayn's house. I've never seen them before but I wanted to go there. I like parties so I decided to come over to Louis. After school I wanted to buy a small present for Louis and Zayn and I met Victor in the city. He asked me to come over and I said yes. Sorry, Diana, I really don't know why I did that but I was... I don't know... I was so terrified that you all could forget about me because of your boyfriends. It didn't really happen but this fear was the worst thing... Victor was very hot and when he asked me to come over... well... it just kinda happened. I'm so sorry!"

I don't understand her... why did she have this fear although she knew we would never forget her?

"What about the video?" I ask motionless and Bella answers "It was Victor's idea. I know, I should have told him that we mustn't do that but he was so hot... I've never done that before and I'm a woman... I also have needs!"

"I've heard enough." I answer coldly and take Nelly's dog leash.

Without any other word Nelly and I go away.

Bella is so stupid... she had been on the best way to apologise for her behaviour but then she said this sentence...

Of course she is a woman with needs!

But this is no reason to have sex with your best friend's boyfriend!!!