Desperation.

Chapter 26

Gradually the other guests come and I get many gifts.

But I don't feel like opening them now because I worry about Louis...

I didn't know where he could be and Zayn doesn't know that, either...

I'm waiting for him the whole evening but he doesn't come.

Some people ask me to dance with them but I just sit on the sofa and hope that Louis will be here soon.

After a while Sara sits down next to me and hands me a cup of tea.

"What's up? I can see that you're sad but why? It's your birthday today and we're having a nice party."

I nod. Yea. The party is nice but I cannot dance and sing and have fun without the boy I love.

"I'm just thinking about something" I answer quietly and try not to look at Sara.

But she doesn't stop asking.  "What are you thinking about?"

"Louis."

"Your boyfriend?"

"Sort of."

"And what's wrong with him?"

"There's nothing wrong with him. I miss him. That's all."

"You worry about something"

"Hell no! Why do you want to know that?" I'm getting angry.

"Because I don't want you to be sad. And if I can help you just tell me"

"Thanks" I say and add in my mind 'But I don't need help. I need Louis.'

I can't look at all the dancing couples on the 'dance floor'. I have to get out of the living room.

Should I go upstairs or outside?

I decide to go upstairs and wait in Louis' room.

I lay down on his bed and it's very comfortable.

If he just could be with me now...

I feel lonely without him and I don't know what to do now.

"Looouuuiiiis?" I scream.

No answer.

"Looouuuiiiissss?"

Okay, now I'm sure that he isn't here...

But where else can he be?

I can hear the others laughing and singing and I wish Louis was here...

"Diana?"

I didn't notice that someone came in so I turn around and see Leanne.

"Hey" I mumble.

"What's up? We're having a great party right now and you're laying in Louis' bed and don't dance with us."

"I miss Louis."

"Oh he isn't here, is he? Sorry I didn't notice that because... you know... Harry and I were busy. The living room is a great dance floor!"

"Yea but what should I do without Louis? I love dancing, you know that, but I don't wanna dance alone."

"You can dance with me."

"And what about Harry?"

"I think he doesn't have a problem with stopping dancing for a while and I know he would love to eat the whole buffet while we're dancing" she laughs.

"Okay. Let's go downstairs."

The music is very loud and everyone seems to enjoy the party.

So I try to forget about Louis and I start dancing with Leanne and the others.

After an hour I go with Harry and Liam to the buffet and I'm eating a piece of the cake when I suddenly notice a note next to the dishwasher.

Why did nobody tell me about that before?

To Diana

Hey love

I'll be back later, 1 or 2 am, I guess.

Sorry for not telling you that earlier but there was no way to tell you about that.

Happy birthday - I hope you have a good one!

You'll get my present when I come back.

Lots of love, Louis.

That's strange. I'm glad that he'll be back later but I don't know what to think about the second sentence... there was no way to tell you about that earlier... What does he mean?? What is the thing he didn't want to tell me earlier? And why?

"What time is it?" I ask Harry and he answers "It's quarter to twelve."

So Louis will be back in 1-2 hours I hope.

"Do you want to open your gifts?" Leanne smiles.

"I don't know... I think I want to do that with Louis."

"But you can't wait so long! And you'll get a present from him, too, so you can open this one with him."

"Okay" I agree and go with the others in the living room.

Most of the guests aren't interested in the presents and go on dancing but Leanne, Harry and Sara want to see what I got.

I got a black and a pink T-Shirt and new earrings, bracelets and necklaces. I think all of my friends know that I love jewellery.

But I also get a new CD and three books.

I like my presents very much so I turn the music off and when everyone is looking at me I say "Thank you all for the great presents! I like them all! And I hope you enjoy the party and you can stay as long as you want to!

I hope that this is okay for Louis...

So I turn the music on again and I go on dancing with the others.

That's the door bell. It must be Louis!