Desperation.

Chapter 71

I open my heavy case and put my clothes into the small wardrobe in my room.

It is under my loft bed and the desk is next to the door. I notice a small white chair and a shelf next to the desk.

This is my room.

Small.

Tiny.

Little.

But sort of... nice. Yea, it is a really nice and comfortable room.

The chocolate on my bed is very delicious and the address book is green.

The only numbers are Marilyn's mobile phone number and the phone number of her hospital.

I put my exercise books onto the desk and look at the books in the shelf.

Anne's last days

Harry Potter

Numbers

Soul beach

and some more books.

Soul beach sounds very interesting and after I brushed my teeth in the small bathroom I lay down on my bed and start reading it.

It is very exciting but I fall asleep right after I read the first chapters.

"Good morning sunshine!"

I need a few seconds to realise that I am not in my own bed...

Marilyn is awake and stands in my room.

"Good morning" I mumble. I pray that she does not start talking again... but she does.

"You have to catch the bus at 7.15 so hurry up, my dear. James is in the bathroom but he'll be finished in a few minutes. What do you wanna eat for breakfast? I have freshly-cooked meats, fried vegetables and baked bread, fried bacon, ham, fried eggs, black pudding, white pudding..."

"Do you have corn flakes?" I interrupt her.

"No traditional Irish meal?" she asks shocked and I nod.

"You're here to learn something about Irish traditions! But- you can eat corn flakes if you want to and I'll make you some fried bacon, fried vegetable and freshly-cooked meats for lunch."

"I'm a vegetarian!" I say hoping that she won't force me to eat her meat.

"Oh, sorry, my dear, I didn't know that! Well, I'll make you some fried vegetable and ham, you eat ham, don't you?"

"No." I shake my head.

"Gosh, Diana, what do you eat at home? It's really unhealthy not to eat meat, y'know?"

I hate hearing these words but I'm used to that.

"It's not unhealthy" I say and try to keep calm.

"Yes, it is! Maybe you can go to McDonalds! My son loves it and you should start eating meat, it's good for your skin, bones, brain and teeth. When did you become a vegetarian?"

"I'm a vegetarian since I'm seven years old."

"Gosh, you must be already dead! Are you fine? Do you need a doctor?! Gosh, I should call an ambulance, I don't want you to lose too much iron, it's dangerous!"

Oh. My. God. What is she talking about?! I feel great and I am never ill! Maybe... once a year! She is completely overreacting!

"Well, it's your decision. Tell me, if you need anything. What do you wanna drink? Water? Milk? Juice? Coffee?"