Alana's mum drives me home at 9pm and I am so tired! Swimming is very exhausting!
When I am almost asleep I wake up again because of a text message.
Grr, does Rose have to text me now?!
But the text message is from someone else...
--------Text-Message-----------
From: Louis
To: Diana
Where r u? i have 2 talk 2 u
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Hell no. Why does he want to talk to me?! I cannot tell him anything anymore.
Well, I would love to tell him everything, that I am in Ireland, that I am unsure what to do with Bella, that James is a mysterious asshole, that I miss him, that I wanna see him again, that I need him and that I am not allowed to meet him...
--------Text-Message------------
From: Diana
To: Louis
I'm in Ireland
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I just closed my eyes when I get a message again.
--------Text-Message------------
From: Louis
To: Diana
UR IN IRELAND?! WHAT THE FUCK ARE U DOIN' THERE?!
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It nearly breaks my heart to send the next message but I do it.
---------Text-Message-----------
From: Diana
To: Louis
Stop messaging me.
I never wanna cu again
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Fuck.
Now I am lying in a bed.
And instead of phoning with my boyfriend I am crying and hope this shit will end soon...
In the next morning I wake up very early so I hurry up to take a shower before James does.
I take my towel, a white top and a pair of blue hotpants.
The bathroom does not have any windows and it is very cold there.
Fortunately, the water is warm and I spend about 20 minutes in the shower.
It is a good place to hide.
Nobody can ask me how I feel.
I cannot hear anything except the water.
Nobody stares at me or insults me.
I cannot see my foolish exchange student.
Nobody can call me.
I can think about anything.
Nobody can interrupt me.
I can cry.
Nobody hears me.
Nobody sees my tears- even I cannot see them.
I get out of the shower when I hear someone knocking on the door.
After I put my clothes on I make my hair and then I open the door.
It is James.
"Next time you have to be faster. I don't wanna be late for school" he growls.
"It isn't my fault that you're in a bad mood every day. I didn't do anything to you! Or do you thing I chose you as my exchange student?!" I reply and he looks confused.
He did not expect me to say that, I guess.
"It should be a pleasure for you to be here!" James barks.
"It is a pleasure. But you are not the type of exchange student students want to have."
"You don't even know me, Diana!"
He looks angry and closes the door to the bathroom while I am going into the kitchen to have some breakfast.
"Good morning, my dear!" Marilyn smiles and I sigh. Please god, make her shut up!
"Good morning, Marilyn" I mumble and sit down to eat some corn flakes.
"What do you plan to do today?" she asks.
"Um... I don't know..." I stutter but she looks happy.
"Great! Do you wanna visit the Dublin Zoo with us?"
Honestly, I do not like zoos and I do not really appreciate going there with my exchange family but I do not wanna be impolite so I agree.
"Okay! The way is not very long. You'll love the zoo!"
Shit. I forgot that she does not own a car...
James and I go to school by bus again and I immediately go to Rose and Alana when we arrive.
"Hey!" I hug them and we search for Josh, Harry, Niall, Liam and their exchange students.
I really like the Irish school, it is comfortable and not too big.
It only takes five minutes until we find the others. They are in the library.
"What are you doing here?" I ask and look at the books in Josh's and Harry's hands.
"Our task is to find out something about differences between Irish and English food. These are cookery books" Josh explains.
"Our first lesson starts in two minutes. C'mon guys!" Niall says and we go to the class room.
"Good morning boys and girls!" Mrs. Smith and Mr. Miller say and our economy lesson starts.
After that we do sports and then we have lunch time.
The food Marilyn made is very delicious and I see that James eats a sandwich with ham. I have one with jam. Marilyn did not forget that I am a vegetarian and she seems to accept that.
When the break is over we continue with our projects- that means Niall, Liam, James, Rose, Alana, Lisa, Sia, Henry and Bella.
I still do not know what I should do- should I forgive her?
Rose told me that I needed time, that is right. Maybe I can forgive her when everything is over.
The sadness about Leanne's death, the prohibition to meat Louis and the exchange with James.
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Desperation.
FanfictionI had good marks,great friends, a lovely home, nice hobbies... I had an almost perfect life. Except one point. The guy I fell in love with. My mum always told me not to fall in love - cause when something falls... it breaks. Now I know what she mean...
