Desperation.

Chapter 18

When I wake up Rose is already awake. She still sits next to me.

"Good morning" I mumble.

"Do you feel better?" she asks and I remember last night.

The video.

Victor.

Bella.

"A bit" I say honestly.

"Okay. I just went downstairs 10 minutes ago and Victor isn't here anymore."

"Rose, please! Let's talk about something else!"

"Okay" Rose agrees "What do you think about Leanne's new shoes! They're so gorgeous!"

"I didn't look at her shoes, Rose" I laugh "Have you made a decision about your hair colour? What do you think about black?"

"Oh yea, I forgot about that! Of course... maybe we can dye my hair today?" she asks.

"Of course we can" I smile and stand up. I still wear my normal clothes so we can go back home now.

We dye Rose's hair and after that we wonder what we could do now.

"Maybe we can go shopping?" Rose suggests and I nod.

The shopping trip is fun but the only thing I can think about is Victor.

Suddenly he appears in front of us.

I turn around and walk away but he pulls me back. "Diana" he says quietly but I don't want to talk to him. Never in a million years.

Should I ignore him or should I shout at him?

I decide to shout. "Leave me alone! I hate you Victor, I hate everything you did, I hate everything we did together! Why didn't you tell me about your affair? Why didn't you tell me that you fell in love with Bella?! And why did you and Bella send Leanne your fucking video?! I hate you and you can tell Bella that I hate her,too! I hate you both and I regret that I fell in love with you! You're an asshole and you're completely fake!"

I don't know how I find these words but somehow I find them and I don't think about stopping shouting at him "I hope I won't see you again! I hope I won't ever think about you again! You're the biggest mistake I've ever made!"

With these words I turn around and go straight on into the opposite direction.

After saying that I feel much better.

Rose is behind me and seems to be surprised. "Well done, honey!" she says "I'm proud of you!"

I smile and we go to the mall.

Spending the afternoon with Rose is a really good distraction.

We try on funny clothes and buy cool shoes and after that we go home.

My parents aren't at home and we take chocolate and coke and watch a movie. While we're sitting on the sofa Rose has an idea.

"Diana? You like Louis, don't you?"

I nod.

"What do you think about meeting Louis and Zayn tomorrow in the cinema? Or somewhere else? What about the skating park?"

Maybe this idea helps me to forget Victor.

I'd love to do something with Rose, Zayn and especially Louis but I think he's still angry.

It's hard to find out because Louis is... in a strange way... unpredictable.

But who doesn't try can't win so I agree "Great idea, Rose! Let's call them. Do you have their phone number?"

"Of course I have. Here it is."

She hands me her mobile phone and I enter the number and give Rose our normal telephone.

She waits until someone picks up the phone and says "Hey baby"

It must be Zayn.

"What are you going to do tomorrow?"

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"Okay, we don't have any plans, either."

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"Diana and I."

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"What do you and Louis think about going to the cinema or the skating park tomorrow?"

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"Yea, they did. I'll tell you tomorrow. So what do you think about my idea?"

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"Sounds okay. 12am?"

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"Great! See you tomorrow, honey!"

She hangs up and I wonder what they said.

"He had a better suggestion. He wants to go to an amusement park! Isn't that fantastic?! Zayn has his drivers licence since 1 or 2 years and he's going to take us there."

I'm insecure about Zayn's idea...

"An amusement park is something for younger children isn't it? And it's very expensive I think..." I mumble but Rose has a different opinion.

"Of course not, what do you think about us? This amusement park is also for older people! And if not- there isn't anything bad about being a child again for one day, is it?"

Yea, she's right.

Maybe it's going to be fun!

After a while I agree.

But I'm afraid of Louis' behaviour tomorrow.

Will he ignore me?

Will we kiss again?

Will we act like friends?

Will I argue with him?

Will he come to the park at all?

I hope so...