Desperation.

Chapter 81

In the next morning we have to go to school again.

Our project is not finished, yet and Niall, Liam, Rose, Bella, James, Alana, Sia, Henry and Lisa and I do some more research for the comparison between London and Dublin.

It is pretty boring...

I catch James looking at me very often and I wonder why he slept with me... I mean, was he drunk? Or is there a wish for something more?

He still does not talk very much and we finish our project quickly.

Nobody is very motivated to present it so one of the other groups starts.

Their topic was "Sights in Dublin" and the presentation is very interesting.

After them, it is our turn and everyone is surprised by the way James presents his part of our project. His voice is loud and clear and he even smiles two times! Wow!

"Very good, James!" his teacher smiles.

The other presentations are pretty boring and so is the rest of the day.

...

In the evening I lie in my bed and call Rose.

Marilyn gave me her telephone so it does not cost very much.

"Hey Rose, what are you and Alana doing?" I ask.

"Nothing. Alana is at her friend's house and I'm lying in my bed. What about you?"

"I'm bored and I think about Louis and James. Why did he sleep with me?"

"Both of you were drunk. Pretty drunk. I don't know why you two did that but I can ask James if you want me to."

"No! Don't ask him! Please!" I beg.

"Okay. But how do you wanna find out why he did that?"

"I honestly don't know that... Well, nevermind."

"Okay."

"I'm really looking forward to coming home"

"I don't. I think I'll miss Alana and the big house and all the other Irish students and the great time..."

"Well, my house isn't big, my exchange student isn't nice and the time either. The party was bad, so what should I miss?"

"Yea you're right... but what are you gonna do when we're back at home?"

"I wanna meet Louis but I'm afraid of his reaction when he finds out that I had sex with James..."

"Then don't let him find out what you did. You needn't tell him what you did. It can be your and James's little secret. Alright?"

"Yes. But there's another problem... My parents don't want me to meet Louis again because they think that he could be the murderer of Leanne."

"I know, but who said that you need to tell your parents that you meet Louis? No one! So just do it."

"Thanks, Rose. Everything sounds so easy when you say it. I'm gonna try it. Who never tries can't win."

"That's right!"

"Okay, I think I should go to bed now. Good night, Rose."

"Good night, Diana."