Desperation.

Chapter 51

Zayn opens the door.

"Hey Zayn" I smile "Where's Louis?"

"Come in, Diana, Louis is upstairs." Zayn replies and I go to Louis room.

His sits front of his desk and plays a computer game.

"Hello Louis" I say and he turns around.

"Hi Diana. What are you doing here?"

"I missed you."

"I missed you, too. What do you wanna do?"

"Um... I don't know..." I answer and think about what we could do today.

The only thoughts I have are

Leanne

Bella

my childhood with them

Louis

And I don't want to think about Bella and everything we did.

I wannabe with Leanne.

My friend.

It hurts that I know that I'm never going to see her again...

Why?

Why why why?

Who did that to her?

She didn't deserve that!

We have to find the murderer!

"Louis?"

"Yea?"

"I have an idea! We must find the person who killed Leanne! Nobody can do that without a punishment. I hate this person" I hiss and Louis tells me to calm down.

"I understand how you feel, Diana. But we can't search for the murderer. That isn't our task. The police is gonna do thay."

He hugs me and I lean my head against his chest.

"One day they'll find him" he whispers "One day."

I close my eyes and Louis pulls me closer to him.

"I can't wait, Louis" I breathe "Imagine he's still in Doncaster! That would be terrible! Who's gonna be the next? I don't wanna lose another friend... Or even... my life. And somehow I feel like the murderer must be found. We should do that for Leanne. She's been one of my best friends..."

"I know" Louis answers "But we can't do anything, Diana. You have to understand that. Neither you know how to deal with a murderer, nor do I. It's obvious that the murderer has to be found but the police has to do that. How many times do I have to say that?! We. can't. do. anything."

"But..." I start but Louis interrupts me "There is no 'but'. Keep calm and wait. That's the only thing we can do."

"Okay" I respond.

"Where have you been the whole day?" Louis asks to change the topic.

If I had known what was going to happen I would have told him the truth... but I didn't know it...

"Um... I was... shopping with my friend Meltem."

"Who's Meltem?"

"I know her because she's a friend of... Rose" I lie.

Somehow I know that Louis is the jealous type of boyfriend. But actually I shouldn't be interested in that because he isn't my boyfriend...

"Okay and what are you gonna do tonight?" he asks but before I can answer his mobile phone rings.

He looks at the display and smiles. "How are you, dude?" ... "Yes, Diana is standing next to me" ... Unfortunately I can't hear what the other person is saying...  "No, I don't think so" ... "Okay" ... "No, no, I already have a present. Thanks. See you tomorrow." ... "Bye!"

Louis hangs up and puts his mobile phone into his pocket. I wanna know who called him but I don't want to ask him... I'm afraid that he could get upset although I don't know about what.

"Well, what did you want to say?" He looks at me and takes my hand.

"I wanted to say that I don't do anything tonight. Well, I have to do my homework but i don't have so much time because I have to go to school tomorrow... Sorry."

"Who cares? I'll help you with your homework and we'll go to the Sandall Park tonight!"

I don't know if that's a good idea but if Louis wants to...

"Sounds romantic" I smile and Louis puts his arms around my waist. "It is romantic" he whispers into my ear and kisses me.

I kiss him back and we sit down onto his bed.

Suddenly I hear a voice. Rose stands in Louis' room and says "Diana? I have to go home now. I have so much to do for tomorrow. Do you come with me?"

I shake my head and want to stand up but Louis wraps his hand around my wrist and doesn't let me go. "Sorry, Rose but I think I'll stay the night at Louis house."

"And what about your mum?"

She's right. I have to tell my mother why I don't sleep at home.

"I have an idea! We both stay here and you can tell your mother that you'll stay at my house, okay?" Rose suggests and I nod. "Great idea" I agree and Louis let me go so I can hug Rose.

When Rose is out of the room I take my mobile phone to call my mother.

"Hey Mum."

"Hello, darling! Where are you? And who's with you? What are you doing? We're waiting for you, my dear!"

I groan and roll my eyes.

"Sorry, mum. I was shopping with a friend.  And I'm gonna sleep at Rose's house tonight."

"What about your homework?"

"Mum! I'm eighteen years old, I know how to organise everything!"

"When are you going to write your next exam, darling?"

Um... to be honest i don't really know that...

"Next month. So don't worry! Everything's alright. Love you, mum!"

"I love you, too, darling" she sighs and hangs up.

"Well, very interesting, daaarling" Louis giggles.

"Don't laugh at me, Louis!" I chuckle and he grins. "What about your homework, darling? You have to do that, darling!" he imitates my mother and I push him onto his sofa.

"Louis! Don't talk about my homework!" I groan and he laughs and pulls me onto his lap.

"We don't have any time for homework. Life is too short for the boring things" he breathes into my mouth and kisses me. I shiver and enjoy the feeling I always get when we kiss.

"You're right" I laugh and lean my forehead against his.

"Well, so what about our walk to the Sandall Park?" he whispers.

"I can't wait" I grin and hug him for the last time before we go downstairs.