Desperation.

Chapter 24

Omg Nagehan I love youuuu♥

Your letter is so amazing and I cried while I was reading it :'( ♡

It's so lovely... And y'know that I'll keep it and when I'm older I'll find it and I'll remember the great time we had as Directioners♥

And I'll probably be crying again:')

I want you to know that you're a beautiful person and I hope you're never gonna change for anyone!

You're like the sister I never had and you're always there for me♡♥

I hope you know that I'll be there for you, too! If you have a problem you can call me or text me:) xxxxx

"Okay so you act like you don't know about our party and I prepare everything for your birthday okay?" Louis seems to mean what he said.

But he told me that my mother wouldn't like his parties.

I hope she let me go to his or my party.

Okay, then I am 18 and I can do what I want to do! So I'm gonna go to my party even if my mother doesn't like Louis' parties.

"Why do you think my mother wouldn't like your type of parties?" I ask.

"Um... because of the alcohol? And the cigarettes? And the shishas?"

"I don't care, my mother smokes, too and she doesn't mind that I drink alcohol. Sometimes. She trusts me and I know the limit."

He seems to be satisfied with my answer.

"Okay. No worries about your Mum. But you have to promise that you'll come to my party."

I nod and kiss him.

"Thanks" I say.

"Thanks for what?"

Thanks for making me happy.

Thanks for helping me to stand up when I fell because of Victor.

Thanks for being always there for me.

Thanks for being my... boyfriend?

Thanks for showing me what love is.

"For everything."

He pulls me onto his lap.

A gesture I got used to the last days.

He leans his forehead against mine and whispers "I love you."

I feel his hot breath and answer "I love you, too."

My cheeks flush and I put my arms around his neck.

When my lips touch his I get this warm feeling deep inside and I know: He's the boy I love.

The one and only.

I slide my tongue into his mouth and he closes his eyes.

I can feel the love and I enjoy his kiss.

We can't separate from each other and after a few seconds I get brave and move my bottom back and forth.

Louis puts his hand on my thigh and draws with his finger circles on my jeans.

We are so engrossed in kissing that we don't realise that Rose stands in Louis' room.

"Your mother called me" she says "she told me that you should turn your mobile phone on. She wants you to come home now."