Desperation.

Chapter 39

In the next morning I wake up in Louis' bed but he is not next to me anymore.

"Louuiiis?" I shout "Where are you?"

He does not answer...

"Diana?" someone says. It is not Louis - that is obvious.

"Louis told me that he'll come back in one hour. If you wanna drink or eat anything you can take what you want. Rose and I go shopping and we'll be back in... maybe three or four hours. See you later!"

"Bye" I say disappointed. Why does Louis always have to disappear?!

I need him! I need him more than anything else!

Especially in this situation... I am alone... Victor cheated on me with one of my "best friends", I lost Bella, she hates me for no clear reason, Rose is in the city, I have no time for practising for my exams, I do not even know when we will write the next exam, Leanne is missing and I do not know if I will see her again... but instead of comforting and loving each other Louis and I always fight...

Why is my life so complicated?

I wish I had someone who understands me...

I wish Louis would understand me...

I wish he would feel the same about me what I feel about him...

I wish he would love me the way I am...

I wish he would accept me as his girlfriend...

Rose and Leanne were the only ones I could talk to... but Leanne is missing and Rose is with Zayn in the city. I know these two girls would understand my worries...

They would... if they were here...

But maybe I can spend my time with someone else now?

I need distraction!

Is there anyone I can call now?

I think about my other friends... I could call Niall or Liam or Josh or Harry... Yes, Harry! He would understand my worries about my friend and his girlfriend!

"Harry Styles" he says.

"Hey Harry. How are you?" I ask although I am sure that he is worried about Leanne...

"Diana?" he says.

"Yea, it's me!"

"Oh. I am tired. And worried. I can't sleep and I actually don't talk to anyone but I think you miss Leanne, too. You're in a similar situation."

"Yea, I am" I admit "I wish Leanne was here with us. Do you want to come over?" I ask but then I remember that I am at Louis' house! Oh no- I hope he does not want to come over!

"No, thanks. I just want to be able to sleep now."

"Okay. But please call me if you know something new about Leanne, okay?"

"Of course. See you" he says and hangs up.

Is there anyone else who would understand our worries?

Maybe the little Sara. She likes Leanne and her brother is the best friend of Leanne's boyfriend.

"This is Sara McJoyce, who's there?" she asks.

"Hey Sara! It's Diana, Leanne's friend. Do you know that she's missing?"

I hope she does because if she does not it would not be the best opportunity to tell her about that on the phone.

But luckily she does.

"Yes, I do. Everybody knows that. It's terrible!" Sara sobs and I agree... she is right.

"Do you want to come over?" I ask her but this time I do not forget to mention that I am at Louis' house "I am at my friend's house. It's next to our school, you'll find it easily."

"Okay... good idea" she answers "I'll be there in 15 minutes."

While I am waiting for her I send Louis a text message.

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From: Diana

To: Louis

where r u?

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Actually it is not that bad to be alone at his house... Nobody would disturb me by searching for more notes or other things...

I know that it is wrong because this is Louis' privacy but I cannot help but do that.

I want to know his secret!

My mobile phone! I got a text message.

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From: Sara McJoyce

To: Diana

sry but I'll be late. I have to do my homework. cu in 1hour

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Per-fect.