Desperation.

Chapter 48

I wake up in the morning but I am very tired. I try to fall asleep again but I can't.

There are too many thoughts in my head.

Who's that mysterious Georgia?

Why have I never seen her before?

She was Josh's first girlfriend...

But she's not at our school...

"Louis?" I whisper "Do you know Georgia? Georgia Brooks?"

He doesn't answer and when I almost close my eyes again because I thought he's still asleep he says "Yes, I know her. She's a friend of Jason."

Jason?! I hate him. He has almost killed me. But Jason is a good topic. I have to ask Louis some questions about him. Although I know he won't answer I start speaking.

"Louis? Who's Jason? I've met him before and I almost died because of him. But why do you like him? And could you tell me the meaning of his notes in... in your box?" I say quietly and I know I said too much. Damn! I shouldn't have mentioned the box. He was very angry about me. I hope he doesn't get angry again...

"No" he answers. He doesn't say more. Just 'no'. At least he isn't angry. But there's no way I can find out more about the notes and Jason.

I start another try.

"What do you usually do at the Sandall Park?"

His voice is almost a whisper and it's hard to understand him.

"We... we meet and go through the park. I bet you've never heard a silence like that before! As you know we always meet at night so nobody else is there and we laugh and talk and it's very nice. We can go to the park together, if you want to. Alone."

This sounds very... romantic.

But somehow I don't believe what he just said. Why the hell would he do something like that with Jason?! It would be believable if he did that with a girl but not with... Jason!

"Yea" I smile "that would be fantastic."

I love the imagination of Louis and me at the park at night.

He pulls me closer to him and I close my eyes.

"What time is it?" Louis whispers and I look at my alarm clock.

Oh shit!!!

It's almost 7am and it's Monday!

I jump out of the bed although I'd love to stay in bed with him for the whole day.

"What's up?" his voice is still sleepy and deep.

"I have to go to school! And it's already 7 o'clock!"

"Come back to bed, love." he breathes but I shake my head.

"Sorry, Louis, but I mustn't miss anything at school. I have no idea what we did the last two weeks because I was so sad. I'm still sad and I can't describe how much I miss Leanne. I haven't been getting anything we did at class for two weeks! We have some examinations soon!"

He sighs and stands up. "I'm gonna go home now. See you soon."

He kisses me and disappears.

It's strange how one person can change my mood within seconds.

I was so happy when we were laying in bed and he suggested to go to the park together and now he left me without saying he loved me or anything like that. Just a kiss and a 'see you soon'.

I take a shower and get dressed.

Then I go downstairs and hope that my mother doesn't ask me anything about Louis.

And I'm lucky.

After I ate my bread I go to school.