Desperation.

Chapter 20

It's his voice.

And her voice.

Bella and Victor.

Victor and Bella.

The two people I hate the most.

Since Friday.

"Louis" I whisper when I separate my lips from his.

He seems to understand because he pulls me in their direction and pretends that he didn't see them.

Then he kisses me again.

He has the same plan. We both wanna make him jealous.

At first I think that he gets high-spirited because he pulls me closer and closer and kisses me like he will never have the chance to kiss me again but it feels indescribably awesome. His kiss is amazing and I get a shiver. My body gets hot and cold when he slides his tongue into my mouth and after that he takes my lip between his teeth. His kiss feels so soft and cocky at once. But in a positive way.

I almost forget about the reason why we kiss like that.

Until I hear Victor's voice again.

Okay, he's probably not the only reason for this incredible kiss.

The more important reason is the magical attraction between Louis and me.

"There's Diana" Victor says with his French accent. Probably his only thing which isn't fake.

I ignore him and Louis helps me by going on kissing me.

"She's a slut."

I've never thought that it would hurt so much to hear these words coming out of the mouth of Bella who once was one of my best friends.

And it hurts even more when they go on blaspheming.

"She's so naive and she believes in everyone who compliments her"

"She's a bitch"

"She kisses everybody who let her kiss him."

"It was a great idea to send her the video"

The tears stream out of my eyes and Louis caresses my back.

I hope they don't see me crying.

Why do I deserve that?

What did I do?

Why are they angry about me?

Did I do something wrong?!

I wanna know the reason for the video! But I can't ask them now because if I did they would see me crying.

I don't know how long they are next to us but I am very glad when they leave us.

When they can't hear us anymore I cry "What's wrong with them? It hurts to hear these words about me. Especially when Bella said that. She was one of my best friends!"

Victor puts his arm around my waist. "Don't think about them. They are just jealous. Victor is probably jealous because he let you go and he didn't realise that you are an amazing person. And Bella is or was jealous because you neglected her. I don't really know that but that happens very often when anyone else gets a boyfriend. That's normal. And if they don't understand that I can't help them. They're stupid and I hope you're not going to see them again."

His words feel good. Maybe it isn't really my fault that they talked about me the way they did. Okay, it is but they overreacted.

Louis and I go to the Free Fall Tower and there's a long queue.

It takes 30 minutes until we can sit down in the seats.

Oh my god we're 60 meters above Rose and Zayn and in a few seconds we will fall down!! It's too exciting for me and I scream and shout and I can't stop until Louis takes my hand and says "Everything is okay. I'm with you. I'll protect you."

I feel better with him and I'm so proud when I am at the floor again.

I survived!

We go back to Rose and Zayn.

Should I tell them what happened?

I don't want to think about that but maybe they wanna know that?

Rose tells me everything and I do the same.

But I decide to forget about this awkward situation.

We try different roller coasters and Louis always holds my hand.

The day is almost perfect!

Except the situation with Victor and Bella... but Louis comforts me so I can almost forget that...

On our way back home Louis and I sit next to each other again but this time we hold hands.

"Diana? What do you plan to do tonight?" Louis asks.

"Nothing. I have to go to school tomorrow."

"But my house is next to your school! The way is shorter than your normal way." He smiles and puts his hand on my thigh.

Oh god, it tingles and my leg gets hot.

Louis is right. He lives next to the school but what should I say to my mother?

I think my father is still ill so he isn't really interested in me and my boyfriend.

Ooops! Did I say boyfriend?  We didn't even say whether we're together or not. We kissed and we spent a day (and maybe a night) together but does that mean that we're in a relationship? No.

Well, my father isn't really interested in me and the boy I fell in love with.

The boy who makes me feel amazing.

The boy who makes me feel incredible.

The boy who makes my life perfect.

The boy who is unpredictable and does everything he wants to do.

The boy I don't know.

The boy who let me feel like I've known him for years.

The boy who could make me do anything for him.

The boy who would do anything for me...?

Would he do that?

I hope so.

"Diana? Why don't you answer? You needn't spend the night with me if you don't want to." Louis interrupts my thoughts.

"Yea, I want to! I was just thinking about... us." I admit and it's a bit embarrassing to talk about our relationship when Rose and Zayn sit in front of us.

"Don't think so much. Live for the moment. Every day is a gift and that's why it's called 'present'." Louis always has good advices although I don't really know what I should think about that.

It's a bit... strange. I think he thinks too much. He seems to know everything and he seems to be wise.

That's odd.

"Okay. I'll come with you" I say and he smiles.

I love his smile.