Desperation.

Chapter 66

Louis.

I want to turn around but it is too late.

Louis has already seen me.

Shit!

He comes over to me and I try to hide behind Enrico.

Poor boy- first Jason and now Louis.

"Diana" he calls out and his sad voice tears my heart apart. "I need to talk to you!"

The last person I want to see now appears in front of me and wants to talk to me.

Great.

One part of me wants to ignore him but my heart needs him.

His kisses, his voice, his hand in mine, his beautiful eyes in front of me, his body, his way to tell me he loves me...

"Enrico" I whisper "Help me."

Enrico reacts quickly.

"Let's go to the buffet, Diana! I'm really hungry!" he says loudly and I look at him thankfully.

The kitchen is crowded but the food looks delicious and I eat a bit salad and chocolade cake.

"Thanks, Enrico" I say and smile.

"Anytime" he answers and grins "But why did you want to go away from him?"

"It's a long story... I'll tell you the story next time okay?"

He nods and takes another cheese stick.

We sit there until I am ready to go back again.

Hopefully Louis is notthere anymore.

"Enrico!" a skinny girl with a very short blue dress says "Come and dance with me!"

It takes a few seconds until I realise that the girl is Amy.

Enrico looks a bit insecure but after I told him to dance with her he agrees and I go to the backyard.

There are a few people from our class and I can see my sister.

She seems to play truth or dare with her friend Mary and a few other people.

Liam's garden is very big and at the end of the garden are the people who are in my class.

I go to them and when I come closer I see that they're smoking a joint.

Is that legal?

"Hey Diana!" Heather says.

She sits on Josh's lap and Daisy, Skyler, Sara, Harry and a few people I do not know are also here.

"We're trying to make different smoke signals."

They seem to be drunk...

"Cool..." I sit down next to Harry and Daisy.

"Show me one of your signals!"

After he handed me a cup of vodka Josh takes the joint and the smoke looks strange.

"This is like a horoscope. Look at my smoke! It's definitely a fist! I'm gonna win a big fight next month!"

Oh my god. What the hell is wrong with him when he is drunk?

I take another glass from the small table next to Liam's shed. The alcohol helps me to calm down. I drink half of the glass and it tastes okay.

Skyler laughs. "I'm pretty sure you won't!"

Now it is his turn.

This time the smoke looks like a snake or a worm...

I take another sip from the glass.

"It's a snake! I'm a very smart person!"

"Snakes aren't smart, Sky" Heather laughs. I am pretty sure that she's already drunk.

All of them are dunk!

After Daisy blew a circle it is my turn.

I have never smoked a joint before so it is a bit strange but I had expected it worse.

My mouth feels a bit dry but it is fascinating to see the smoke that comes out of my mouth.

"It's a heart!" Daisy shouts "Oh my god, Diana! Look at your smoke! You'll find your big love!"

My next glass of alcohol.

After I drank it I shake my head and close my eyes.

If there is a big love in my life it would be Louis.

This game is not logical and I would rather be inside but here are some of my friends and I am not alone.

Skyler hands me another glass, I think it is whiskey and I drink it.

Harry blows a head and Sara an 'S'.

Somehow I like that game... or maybe it is the alcohol which makes me feel odd... and I get really tired now...

Oh shit!

I drank way too much... it is dangerous to underestimate these small glasses.

I lean my head against Harry's shoulder and do not realise that I fall asleep.

...

"Wake up, Diana!" Sara says and I open my eyes.

Fuck I can still feel the alcohol and my head starts aching.

"What time is it?" I ask and Daisy shows me her watch.

Everything is blurred but it's about 2am, I guess.