Desperation.

Chapter 5

"Good morning, Diana! Get up, darling. It's already 7 o'clock!" my mother says and I jump out of bed.
7 o'clock?! She could have woken me up earlier!
Okay, I know, I am 17 years old and I should get ready for school by myself but sometimes I do not hear my alarm clock so my mother has to wake me up. I take my clothes for today and go to the bathroom. "You can't come in! I am in the bathroom now!" Oh no! Why does Julia always have to block the bathroom?! She's in a difficult age and she always wants to look perfect but if you ask me she puts on too much make-up and her style is... okay let us not talk about her style. It is... special. But special in a strange way. "Come out of the bathroom, Julia. You look better without any make-up. Let me take a shower!" I say and she unlocks the door. I take a quick shower and put my clothes on.
Today I am wearing a pair of black jeans and a blue T-Shirt which has probably the same colour as Rose's hair.

When I arrive at school Rose, Bella and Leanne are already there. They are talking about Rose's new hair style.
"I wish I was brave enough to dye my hair! But I'm afraid that it could look strange and ugly." Bella says.
I hug them all and before I could say that Bella would look great with blue hair a girl comes. I do not know her but Leanne does. "Hey, you are Leigh-Anna, aren't you?! Nice to meet you!" Leanne looks confused and answers "No, my name is Leanne. Nice to meet you again!" Now the girl looks at us. "My name is Sara and Leanne was at my brother's house party."
"Hey Sara" I answer and smile. She seems to be very nice but a bit younger than us. Maybe 15 or 16 years old. "Do you want to hang out with us?" Bella asks but Sara shakes her head. "Sorry but my friends are over there and they are waiting for me." She hugs Leanne and goes away.
"Why didn't you tell us about this party?" I ask. Leanne looks guilty. "Sorry but the party was a very spontaneous idea from her brother Josh and Harry asked me to come with him."
"Harry?!" My eyes go wide and I hold my breath. Harry. The probably most popular boy at our school. "Yeah, Harry" Leanne says shily and cannot believe what she has just said.

Oh no. Our classes start now.
We go to our classroom and Mrs. I-hate-every-single-pupil-in-this-class is already there. "Why are you late, girls?" she asks with a fake smile. "Our bus was too late" I lie and we sit down.
Although I do not like math I get very good grades so I do not always have to listen to the teacher because I already know what she explains and I can think about Victor.
And Harry and Leanne.
And Rose's blue hair.
And Little-Sara.
And god knows what else.

When finally the bell rings I go to Rose, Leanne and Bella and we go to the street next to our school. Suddenly Rose pulls me to a corner and whispers "Diana.... look... Over there! ... There are... Zayn and another guy. What should I do?" I try to stay calm and say "Oh my god, you're right! Let's go to him and ask him what he does next to our school!" We go to Zayn and the other boy and Zayn smiles when he sees Rose.
'I want Victor to be here, too' I think but I try not to think about him now.
"Hey Rose" Zayn kisses her and she looks happy. "What are you doing here?" she asks. He looks at his friend and answers "Louis lives next to your school and you know that I live at his house at the moment." She nods and I look at Louis, too.
He is attractive and has brown hair. His eyes are blue and green and they are unbelievable. I try not to stare at him all the time because he is.... um... I do not know how to describe him. I cannot say whether he is angry or not but his glance is... strange.
Luckily we have to go back to school now so I need not look at him any longer... although I would love to look at him but this glance... I do not know how I should feel about him so I decide to forget about him and I hope that I will see Victor soon.
History is boring- as always and after that we have P.E. I really like P.E. - especially dancing of course but I also like basketball and volleyball. The teacher splits our class in two groups: boys and girls. The boys should play football and we should dance. Yeah!! We make up a choreography to Wrecking Ball and that's fun! But I cannot concentrate because I always think about Victor and Louis. Why the fuck am I thinking about Louis?! I do not even know him! After P.E. we can go home. Cooking is a voluntary lesson and I do not feel like staying at school any longer. I want to see Victor!
On our way back home I ask my friends about their plans for today.
"Maybe we can go shopping?" Bella asks and I nod. "Great idea!" I agree. But Leanne shakes her head. "Sorry, girls. But I promised Harry to meet him today. Maybe we could go shopping tomorrow?" - "No, we can't." Rose tells us "Tomorrow I go to the cinema with Zayn and on Wednesday I am going to visit my grandma. Poor old lady! My mother never visits her. She doesn't even call her. I'm the only person grandma has." She looks sad and I know what she is talking about.
I know her grandmother as well and she is a nice old woman but Rose's mother is her only daughter and she has nobody else.
So we decide to go shopping without Leanne.
"3 pm?" Bella asks and Rose and I agree.

When I arrive at home my mother hands me a plate with noodles. "Hello darling! I hope you like the noodles. It's good that you are already here. Can you explain something to Julia? She doesn't understand her homework and she's going to write an exam tomorrow!" I want to say something but before I can open my mouth she adds "Thanks darling! I have to go out with Nelly! You forgot that this morning!"
Oh no! She is right! I quickly search for Nelly and promise to buy her something as an excuse.
"Diana?" Julia stands in front of me and in her hand is her exercise book. "Can you tell me what I should do in this exercise?" I groan and read the exercise. Then I explain it to her and after that I lay down in my bed.
I still have half an hour until I am going to meet Rose and Bella so I start doing my homework.
It is almost 2.55 when I finish so I hurry up to catch the bus to the city.
By the time I get on I see someone at the back of the bus.
Oh my god that is Victor! I am so glad to see him again!