Desperation.

Chapter 25

This week is over very fast and I don't realise that my birthday is coming soon.

Tomorrow.

I'm so excited! I can't wait to go to bed and wake up.

Tomorrow I'll be fucking 18!!

When I come back from school my mother asks me what I want to do tomorrow.

Oh shit! I forgot to tell her about the party...

"Um... My... boyfriend will organise a party for my birthday and all of my friend will be there... so maybe we can invite Grandma, Grandpa and my uncles and aunts for... Saturday?"

"Are you kidding me? Seriously?! Why didn't you tell me about this party? And who's gonna be there? And where is the party?!" she screams.

Why does she want to know that? I'm almost 18 so I can do whatever I want to do!

But I don't wanna fight with her today so I answer every question.

"I forgot to tell you about the party, I'm so sorry, Mum. The party will be at Louis' house and Rose, Louis, Zayn, Leanne, Sara, Niall and all the others will be there."

She seems to think about what I told her.

"I know Rose, Leanne and Niall but who are the others? And what about Bella?"

"Um... Bella and I had a fight... well... sort of. But that's not very important to know and Louis is my boyfriend, Zayn is Rose's boyfriend, Sara's a friend from school, she's Josh's sister and some more guys will be at the party. Nobody you should worry about." I tell her and I hope she's satisfied.

I think she is because she nods and smiles. "Okay. I think I have to accept that you aren't my little girl anymore. You're growing up." She sighs.

I hug her and say "I'll go to bed now. Good night"

"Sleep well darling" she smiles before I go upstairs and brush my teeth.

I'm happy when I lay in bed but I can't sleep immediately because I am so excited.

...

In the next morning my little brother wakes me up and shouts "Waaakeee uuup Diiaannaaaa! Happy birthday!"

And then he starts singing...

Screaming is not the best way to wake me up because normally I'd be in a bad mood now but I'm not because today is my 18th birthday!

"Good morning, love. Happy birthday!" my parents say and they sing with Sam.

Oh no!

Now my sister comes in and she looks very sleepy.

"Happy birthday" she mumbles and tries to smile.

We go downstairs and I open my presents.

I get money, some books, clothes, a CD and 2 DVDs.

All in all I really like my presents although there's nothing special.

But I know that the special part of the day will come later. At the party. Oh my god, I can't wait!

But now I have to go to school.

Luckily I don't need to walk today because my Dad takes me and my sister to school.

Most of my class mates and friends are already there.

Rose is the first one who hugs me snd screams "Happy birthday, honey!! You're 18!!! Eighteen!  You can do what you want to do now! Isn't that wonderful?"

Well, I haven't thought that anyone could be more excited than I am but Rose is.

She doesn't stop hugging me and talking about my birthday and the party.

"Happy birthday" Leanne says when she comes over to us. Harry is with her and he also says happy birthday.

"Are you gonna come to my party?" I ask them and they nod when suddenly Sara appears.

"Happy birthday" she smiles.

How does she know about my birthday?

Josh was probably telling her about today and I hope that Josh and Sara will be at the party, too.

...

Our lessons are boring and I'm glad when the school day is over.

"What should we do now?" Rose asks "Should we go to Louis and Zayn or do you wanna do something different at first?"

"I just want to go to the party! I'm so excited about it and I can't wait! I wished my birthday could be on a Saturday or Friday so we could celebrate the whole night but unfortunately it isn't."

"That doesn't matter. If you want to we can skip class tomorrow" Rose suggests and I agree "Yea, let's do that. But what about the others?"

"Louis and Zayn don't need to go to school anymore and the others have to decide that on their own."

She's right. I'm happy that Louis is older than me and he doesn't need to go to school.

We make our way to Louis' house and we can't talk about anything except the party. I hope Louis has organised everything well and everyone will come over in an hour.

After Rose rang the door bell Zayn opens the door with a friendly smile and hugs me. "Happy birthday, Diana. I hope you enjoy your party."

"Thanks. I think I will." I smile and then Zayn kisses Rose.

Where is Louis?

I go inside and search for him.

At first I go to the living room. Wow! It looks great! There are many lights in different colours and the music boxes are big and black. Next to the music player are many CDs and I can see "Bangerz" from Miley Cyrus - Does Louis know that I love her music? - and some CDs I don't know.

But now I have to find Louis!

Maybe it would be easier to ask Zayn but he's busy with Rose so I don't want to disturb them.

So I go to the kitchen and see a long table with two cakes, cookies, cheese sticks, salad, soup, sweets and even chocolate fruits! Oh god - I know that this is going to be the best birthday ever.

If I had known earlier what will happen tonight I wouldn't have said that...

But now I'm so happy and I can't believe my eyes. The whole house looks great and I cannot wait for the guests!

I decide to go upstairs because Louis could be in his room or in the bathroom...

"Louis?" I ask loudly.

"Where are you?"

No answer.

Holy shit. Today's my 18th birthday and my guests will arrive in a few minutes and the guy who's maybe my boyfriend or sort of doesn't appear.

Oh no. That must be the first guests.

Luckily Zayn opens the door.

I can hear Niall laughing - you can hear him laughing miles away because he always laughs about everything and everyone.

And I would bet that he's at the buffet now and eats the most delicious things.

But I can't worry about the buffet now because Louis is away and I neither know where he is nor when he's gonna come back.

Great.

The next guests are Liam, Leanne and Harry and I go downstairs.

I'm so nervous and I hope Louis will be back soon.

We can't have a party at his house without him, can we?!