Desperation.

Chapter 32

"Tell me something about yourself." Jason commands.

That's the same sentence Victor said a few weeks ago...

"I'm 18 years old... I like dancing and going shopping... my best friends are Rose and Leanne but I think you don't know them... and I like ice cream!"

He laughs. "Okay. I am 23 years old and I like parties."

Okay... that's a brief description of himself.

"Where do you live?" I ask.

"It depends on how much money I have. Sometimes I kip at a friend's house and other times I sleep at a hotel or I rent a flat for a month."

Oh my god! Jason is strange...

"And how do you earn your money? It sounds like you don't have a usual job with a normal payment?"

"Umm... no. I have different jobs. sometimes I work as a barkeeper or a... um... just different jobs."

It seems like he has a secret... just like Louis. But i don't want to ask him about that because I'm afraid he could get angry and react like Louis did when I tried to talk to him about being late for my birthday party. But maybe Jason can help me to find out more about the person Louis met here.

"How often do you visit the Sandall Park?" I ask.

"Almost every day." he answers.

"So you know most of the people who visit the park?"

"Yea... I think so."

"Okay... Can I ask you something?"

"That's what you're doing all the time" he laughs.

"Oh.." I say a bit embarrassed. "Do you know the people who were here on Tuesday at 8pm? At the entrance?"

He looks confused. "Um... Of course I do! That was me! I met a friend."

What the hell?! He seems to know Louis?!

"Was his name Louis?" I ask and regret it immediatly. I don't know why but somehow it feels like Jason should not know about Louis and me.

"Yea! Do you know him?"

"Sort of" I say and hope that he doesn't notice that it's not just a sort of.

He's a special person. A person everyone wants to know. I'm glad to know him but I also hate loving him because whatever he does- everything drives me insane just because it's him. It doesn't matter what he does- I know I will always love him. We're in a difficult situation at the moment but that doesn't mean I love him less than in other times. He doesn't trust me and I can't trust him But we have to go through this... and the most important thing is that he trusts me. If Jason doesn't lie and he met Louis he needn't act like he has a dark secret or whatever. Likely Jason is just a friend and there isn't anything he has to keep away from me, is it? But is meeting a friend more important than his girlfriend's birthday? Oh sorry- I forgot that I am not his boyfriend and he can do what he wants to do...

"Diane! Are you listening to me?" Oh shit! Did he tell me something?

"Diana" I say automatically. "Not Diane."

"Sorry."

"No Problem. What did you say? Sorry but I didn't listen..."

"No Problem. I just told you that I know Louis from school and we were best friends until this Zayn moved to Doncaster."

He pronounced the name like it was dirt or whatever and he obviously doesn't like Zayn. But why? Zayn is my best friend's boyfriend! He's friendly, nice, polite and I'm sure: If I asked Rose she would say that he's cute and hot and whatever... there's nothing bad about him. He's almost a perfect boy.

But I could never fall in love with him. The first reason is Rose and the second is that he's too perfect for me... I'd feel stupid or ugly when I was with him.

"Diana! Come with me! Fast" Jason interrupts my thoughts and pulls me to a bush. What the fuck does he want to do there? And why do we have to hide there?

"There's the Police!" Jason whispers when he sees my confused glance.

"And what's your problem?!" I ask.

"They mustn't see me!"

"Why?!"

"Shut up!" He suddenly half whispers, half shouts. What the hell is going on here?!" I try to go out of this bush but Jason pulls me back. "Jason! That hurts!" I tell him but he doesn't let me go.

"Jason! Let me go!" I hiss but his grip is too hard. My wrist hurts and I bet it's red or already blue and violet. "Sorry, Diane! i can't let you go. It's important!"

"Diana!" I almost shout but he covers my mouth with his other Hand.

Heeeeelp! Looouuiiis? Where are you? I need you. And what the hell is Jason's problem?!

I'm scared of Jason right now... what is he going to do? And I can't call this police man over there or shout because he covers my mouth and he is much stronger than me...

Oh no... Why did I want to meet him alone? Why didn't I take Louis with me?... Oh right... we don't talk to each other. What should I do?

The park is big and I think if I tried to make a noise nobody would hear that and the only thing I aim at would be Jason being more aggressive than he is now.

It hurts and I can't really breathe anymore. I gasp but Jason ignores me. I can feel the sweat on my forehead.

What should I do?

What should I do?

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Why can't anybody help me?

Noooo...

My hands are also sweating and I try to hit Jason with my elbow.

"Don't move!" he hisses. "Don't move or I have to do something you don't want me to do!"

I feel the tears streaming down my face.

The park is full of people and nobody sees or hears us!

The only thing I realise is that Jason pulls me back when I try to stand up.

After that I don't feel anything and the only thing I see is a black hole.