"All good Y/n?" Tom says walking into the room to check up on me. "What you think?" I ask showing off my knee length black dress with floral patterns at the bottom. "You look lovely as always." He says kissing my hand. We all planned a small dinner to celebrate Tom's movie.
"Fancy choice." I say glancing at his restaurent choice. "For a fancy girl." He says offering his arm for me to hold. "You guys made it!!" Jacob says excited. We set a round of drinks first. The conversations were going alright until the whole place got crowded. Not to mention the fans going crazy outside. "Excuse me." I say getting up to leave to the bathroom before I could get a panic attack.
I stayed there longer than I should have. Coming to my senses I grab my purse and walk out. The place felt so small with a crowd of people. I stood there lost until someone grabbed my arm. "Love, you alright?" It was Tom. I nod my head faking a smile.He guided us towards the table and everyone gave us a big 'oooohs'. "Nothing like that guys." Tom says. They all giggle a bit.
We all talked about the movie and other stuff we all have planned to do. I stayed quiet most of times and laughed when they all laughed. Tom puts his hand on my thigh to assure if things were alright. He gave that cute smile face which flatters my heart. I smile a bit.
"Wow. Look at all the fans crowding the entrance." Zendaya says. I'm surprised they all stayed until we finished. We all got up and stood by the table. Well I sat down after seeing the room. "Are you sure you are okay?" Tom asks sitting down next to me. Tears filling my eyes. "Y/n?" He asks holding my shoulders. "Is she having a panic attack?" Harrison asks concerned. He was the only one that knew I had mental issues. Tom looks at Haz confused. "What do I do?" He asks Haz worried. The time not being right to discuss about how he knows about it and Tom doesn't. "Rub her back slowly and try to make her breath along with you." Haz says. Tom slowly rubs my back as I lay my head on his shoulder. "Its okay baby." He whispers in my ear. Zendaya and Jacob tried to find another way out. "Is she alright?" She asks. "I don't know." Tom replies sadly looking at Haz. "She's getting okay." He says. "They said we can go out from the back door." Jacob says. Tom nods his head before helping me up. "You okay now?" He asks. His voice full of worry. I nod my head. He held a tight grip on my hip as we all walked out of the back door. Since the car was parked along the entrance we had to make a run for it. "I'm right here. Nothing is gonna happen." He whispers before we all ran towards the cars. "Haz can you come with us." He says. Harrison didn't argue back. He helped us into the car and drove. I laid my head on Tom's shoulder before falling asleep.
I woke up to someone spreading a white piece of clothe on my face. It was Tom trying to remove my make up. I sit up straight. He frowned. "These are like permanent shit or something." I giggle. I looked down to see that I was in shorts and a T-shirt of Tom's. I wiped off the make-up and he just watched. "Get some sleep alright?" He says kissing my forehead.
-Tom's P.O.V-
"So how do you know she gets panic attacks?" I ask joing Haz on the sofa who was sipping on a can of soda. "It happened when she went to visit you on the set once." He says. "And you didn't tell me?" I say a bit rude. "She didn't let me. She thought you would find her as a burden and that she would make everything in your life miserable. That's what her previous boyfriend had described her. So she didn't want me to tell you. She said she will try one day but she didn't want to let you down or make you be worried about her always." He says. I sit there quietly. "She didn't want to ruin your career. She said her ex boyfriend complained saying he couldn't go with his dream career cause she was too much for him to deal with. She don't want you to feel that day." He says. "So she struggles it alone?" I ask concerned. "Mostly yes. I have seen her at states like that a few times." He says.
"What do I do?" I ask feeling hopeless. "Just assure her that she's not alone." He says witha small smile. I nod my head.
The next morning I made her breakfast along with a small love note. Something I'm very bad at but I would do anything to help her. "Aren't you going for work?" She asks. I shake my head. "I took the day off." I reply. "Is it cause of last night?" She asks with her head low. "No no. Baby don't think like that. I'm always working and I just want to spend some time with you too. I promise I'll make everything right." I say kissing her forehead. "And that's what he said too." She says with her voice full of sadness. "Maybe but I'm different. Have some hope in yourself. Trust yourself just one last time that something better is going to happen." I say putting a strand of hair behind her ear.
A/N: If you suffer from any mental issues please don't give up so easily. I know life csn be so shitty and its hard for some days to get out of bed or keep the clothes in order and finding it hard to find an outfit that made you feel comfortable in. Its hard. You may feel that the people around you don't care but there will be others that will care about you. Others that will understand you. So don't lose hope. I'm counting on you to be there tomorrow and the next day even.
