In the ancient realm there was a soul who was known widely as Hanguang-Jun.
He was known to be aloof and away from worldly beings. Seldom people knew him for who he was or what his heart truly yearned in reality.
A man who loved dearly and in retu...
Note: I am combining the backstory of the drama and book to create my own imagination of Lan Zhan's feelings towards Wei. So for those who haven't read the book, it might be a little different for you.
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"Lan Zhan" he smiles sadly as we stand on top of the cliff of the Nightless City "do you agree with what is happening? Mercilessly eliminating anyone who even remotely belongs to the Wen Sect! Lan Zhan, who is right and who is wrong here? Are you even able to distinguish between white and black? Is this honorable, Lan Zhan?"
"Wei Ying" I whisper.
We look into eachothers eyes and the depth of sadness in his eyes makes me want to embrace him for an eternity and keep him away from all the darkness.
"Come back to Gusu with me, I am learning new notes. It will help you cleanse" I plead. His smile is even more haunting "So even you don't trust me do you?". I am unable to give him any reply. Not that I don't trust him, but he won't believe if I do assure him. My faith in you is unshakeable, Wei Ying. Look into my heart, my soul and the truth is what you would find there.
He is about to leave, when I, without thinking too much, hold his arm gently"You promised me that you'll let me help you" my eyes implore to him the truth in my heart but he, he refuses to see that.
"When there is no trust, no amount of help would seem genuine, Lan Zhan. Go back" he walks away and my heart bruises a little more. That moment is one of the most painful part of my life. Him walking away and me unable to stop him.
Lest I knew, years later, it would be the same place that I would loose him forever. ---
The next day as each Sect bid their farewells and promise to be a part of the Big Pheonix Mountain Hunt, the Yunmeng Sect are ready to leave before us. As I wait for a small glimpse from him, he looks at me with such apathy that my heart shatters again. Don't I mean anything to you? My brother turns to seek me, asking me if I am alright? Unable to provide an answer my posture is even more stoic.
That day when everyone were rejoicing victory, my heart was in tatters. ---
Mounting my Bichen, I fly back to Gusu and unable to stay still, I walk into the library pavillion to research on the notes which would calm one's heart and mind. It does not matter if I don't mean a thing to him, but for me, he is everything.
After few days, me being locked up in Jingshi, my brother notices something being amiss. "Wangji" brother enters Jingshi and finds me playing my Zither "I have been informed that from the time you came back, you have been reading a lot of books and constantly playing your music. Is everything alright?"
"Brother, please allow me to go to Yunmeng" I bow. Eyes widening, he smiles kindly "Yunmeng?" "Hm" "Alright, go but return before uncle, he would not appreciate, you being there".
Thank you.
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